1. |
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Yeah, it’s a celebration
Yeah, I’d like to thank you all for being so patient
Yeah, I was stuck in surgery feeling so aimless
Yeah, finally stuck the scalpel in far enough to taste it
I wish I could tell you where the old me went and hid
I sent that fuckin kid to hell then up to 10
He needed some vivaciousness injected in his skin
It elevated him, let’s celebrate the win
I saw the light, no I’m not gracious
Had to reimagine me as not another faceless
Encourage myself to forget about the faithless
Pulling me together was my number one basis
I dug into my gut to find what made this
Being that I once was tick, tick, ape shit
I went off the rocker for a bit hit basement
Won’t feel better till I sit with pavement
Had to fix a plate and then I ate it
Lining up my cutlery, it’s all in product placement
It’s fuckin hurtful as you watch it fadin
My thinking’s more precise, believe me I’ve awaken
For a minute there, I was ill prepared
I misplaced a part of me and I didn’t care
Till reality was just sittin here
I don’t like this place, thinking like shit I’m scared
Yeah, I can feel the earth shakin
Yeah, I feel like I am blessed by the mother fuckin ancients
Yeah, nobody but me can paint it in this nature
Yeah, lemma hear a round of applause for your goddamn savior
I wish I could tell you where the old me went and hid
I sent that fuckin kid to hell then up to 10
He needed some vivaciousness injected in his skin
It elevated him, let’s celebrate the win
Life is good, not really, it’s fuckin great
You’ll always meet the pessimist that bring up some debate
On why you got to follow rules, well, I’m the snake
Sink your fuckin fangs into the apple cause you’ll love the taste
Of changing up the pace, tangle up the lace
Trippin at the ankle while you dangle in disgrace
When you find out you’re a copy of a copy
Mr. Reznor nailed it, your printed page is just a blank
I simply like to take the backroad
Leaves room to be an asshole, never have to step that low
Got some wiggle room to let my act grow
Only place I’m injured is the strength of my cash flow
I must accept it, being independent
Just impressed that I found my way back to pen this
Skilled at my craft, should have an apprentice
Carry on my legacy when the death of me ends this
Yeah, it’s a celebration
Yeah, I’d like to thank you all for being so patient
Yeah, I was stuck in surgery feeling aimless
Yeah, finally stuck the scalpel in far enough to taste it
I wish I could tell you where the old me went and hid
I sent that fuckin kid to hell then up to 10
He needed some vivaciousness injected in his skin
It elevated him, let’s celebrate the win
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2. |
Abusement Park
02:43
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We don’t have too much time but I take so much time to do all
We always stand in line then we lose our place every time we fall
I need a new direction this one’s not acceptin me anymore
I’m so sick of correction, please be the step I’m ready for
I have my ticket, fuck, I’m lost in the thicket
Was this shit regifted, it feels like it was
Sippin from the spicket on the outside lookin in it
I’ve always been too chicken even though it seemed like fun
C’mon and take the ride, little baby won’t you swim
Hold your brittle head high, dip your little piggies in
The waters just fine, I’ll let you wade a bit
Till your fears subside, your pathetic, bathe in it
That’s when I knew that I would drown if I didn’t learn to fight
Splashin all around, I had to earn the right
Pulled my head up from the ground just to feel it burn in light
Then I came to join the crowd, but I returned in spite
I won’t be a part, so I refused to start
Thought I was a shiny star, then I got confused with art
Not knowing what was real pierced me right through the heart
I was granted VIP in your abusement park
We don’t have too much time but I take so much time to do all
We always stand in line then we lose our place every time we fall
I need a new direction this one’s not acceptin me anymore
I’m so sick of correction, please be the step I’m ready for
I laced up my boots, thought I’d put them to use
Worn out the soul I’d lose, unclear if I’d get it back
I faced the truth then confessed it in a booth
Did the best that I could do but there’s something that I lack
I step up to the plate but my best hit’s just a bunt
I stagger to the base and know it’s not what I want
Feel like an average joe you never see me up in front
Why the hell can’t I make the hit that will take me from this slump
Never called, no requests, why can’t I swim in streams?
Losin money, can’t invest myself in all these hidden schemes
Happiness cannot exist when all your bets are in your dreams
Keep your standards simple, life ain’t the shit it seems
I’m not angry, just saying it takes more than a skill
To stay hard, more than a pill, play cards, more than a deal
Face odds and even the score and sure, go for the kill
Be prepared when road slows, I’m sure it will
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3. |
Prodigal Wordsmith
03:10
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I’m positive, it’s impossible to not watch my wattage flow
The opposite of droppin slow knowledge off the top and so
Lock and load, click, click, Faustian office pro
I offered up chopping blocks to the pretards to stop their role
Talk is sold, walk the road of stones and bricks and rock & roll
Phone those pricks, I’m the off show, I’m not unknown, a crop circle
Dusting off the musty cloth, I must be off my cough and cold
Just the soft and fuzzy thoughts have shoved me, fuck I lost control
Pissin pot has froth and full, let’s call this bowl the pot of gold
Oughtta fold, prodigal wordsmith with a lot to hold
Verses delivered by hearses, curse this person that’s responsible
Write like I might be on the snow; brain is racin obstacles
Turbulence is stirrin the current, sense my genes across the pool
Furtherin’ me, yer the current tense cause you lost optical
Shot the sheriff, popped the priest, stopped the thief that got my soul
Needed it back to sell myself short-handed to that profit ghoul
Started to think I lost a goal
Goddamn it I’m hungry again, I was close to being improbable
You will never watch me topple o-
Versions of a certain me, I certainly am talkable
You better keep watchin’ For when the shade changes shape
(You don’t know what I may become)
I was a birth defect not worth the term reject
The nurses were neglectful, burned the serpents hex
Into his perfect chest then served as pets, up next the pervert’s best circus net
Failed to catch him, they’re all laughin, you've fuckin heard the rest
This is a service test, words infest the circuits best
When you’re open to the verdicts mess, potent but I still serve no less
Clothin is optional, only covers who you were, confess
True colors, lose what has you smothered in yer success
Enthusiasm can be curbed, I stir the fresh
Scent of resentment, sorry for fermented worthlessness
It circumvents full circle this is worser when it is purposeless
I live and breathe and burp this mess so no choice but to work this breath
Now the stage still seems built a bit fragile
Nowadays the Kings killed in his castle
The creep will come sneaking to slit throats while he's sleeping
In his sheets he's believing that his rule has safe keeping
You better keep watchin’ For when the shade changes shape
(You don’t know what I may become)
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4. |
Wire You Gel Us
04:44
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The pen and the pad became a keyboard and a screen
Wanna get more than you have then you need more than a dream
The person that you knew, just a pixelated theme
A choose your journey tale, never know where the trail is gonna lead
The king is gonna hail and you may never fit his scheme
Scared of what prevails, stare at a never finished scream
Your lungs will still exhale, it’s the inhale that’ll quit and feed
Your heart its jump start so it never skips a beat
You wake up one day to find that everything has changed
You placed it on external drives, can’t see that anything has saved
One day today is grey, just a dream, relive them days
Lemme see what I can paint for you before I’m on my way
Hey, hey, where’d you go?
Flee the scene when something’s wrong
You tried you’re best, you gave you’re all
Never give up on the artist that you’ve grown to know
I want you to gimme the combination to your safe
The greatest complication is right in front of your face
Congratulate yourself for makin it this late in the race
State your names, don’t matter, I’m here to take the place
As the outcast that will outlast passed skill, feelin me?
Want inside? Keep drilling me, fuckin killin me
Small step for man, getting tinier as I’m building me
Into my own army marching just for the thrill to see
How much further I’ll go
Keeping pushing on and on until I worsen the blow
More strange and deranged things keep hurtin my show
It’s a sacrificial wound, there’s more to learn and to know
Not just another mother fucker makin sounds
I’m in this as a lover, undercover sprayin rounds
Believe me that I'm trouble, even when layin down
Goddamn right that this is battle, saddle up and take your grounds
We see the wild styles of the rich and famous
How ‘bout the loud mouths of the gifted nameless
Never found out what’s in these bits of pages
Of pavement we keep hittin cause this shit is ageless
A script of how we're livin and its been contagious
There were moments we were spinning through fits and rages
We're doin it right if we're raisin fists of strangers
Every line I write is just another list of dangers
I was gonna come at this with storytelling
But I thought, I gotta hit it good with something more compelling
Revel around in your level, I’m down for selling
My soul whole, I’m bound by my tortured belly
And the creature that pits against this corporate dwelling
I tried to keep quiet but you always force the yelling
So here I am pulling on that shortest straw
Yet continuously proving that I’m more than raw
I stand against the giants with my own theories and science
See no need for compliance, simply feed its defiance
Silence, silence? You'll never get my silence
There's about to be a massacre, sound off all the sirens
I’m in to win it, a minute to get it, infinite critics are sniffin around
Listening in on the cynical gibberish slippin the shit in and fistin their mouths
Getting the littlest hint of the bitterness, flinchin with jitters then kissin it out
Fixin your ears with this sweet love and tenderness, stickin your ear drums with similar sounds
Finish it sick of this simple shit that you’ve allowed
Can't catch the facts unless I relax and slow it down
This is my breaking point it's taken me beyond annoyance
Safe to say I'm here in hopes that I just may destroy this
Hey, hey, where’d you go?
Flee the scene when something’s wrong
You tried you’re best, you gave you’re all
Never give up on the artist that you’ve grown to know
Started the pilots heart, it's departed to my wildest schemes
Maybe I'll learn of the artistic words of my childish dreams
Baby I heard this far distant version of my loudest screams
May be observed as narcissistic, that’s just how it seems
I used to give myself such high expectations
Now I can’t find the time to even bind with my patienc
Exercise the mind and really try to shape this
Fetch some Technicolor to spice the life up of this blankness
It’s for the story teller, it’s for the poet
Do it for the glory of showin me split open
I do it for the mourning and to show you how we’re broken
Do it for the four in the morning sleepless nights of hopin
That there’s peace more than there’s war, the love that we have woken
I do it to be immortal through the words that must be spoken
Though it’s not for the lord yet in my soul I know I’m chosen
I do it to release the stress of these pages that I wrote in
I do this cause I’m sure I’m one the best there’s ever been
I do it cause I won’t settle being told I’ll never win
I do this cause I know that I’m worth remembering
Forever in your thoughts after my final breath gives in
I do this for the comfort of where I’ve settled in
I do this for the angels that play in my devil’s den
I do it cause I’m certain I can never let it end
I do it so there’s no giving up and there’s no way I’m giving in
Hey, hey, where’d you go?
Flee the scene when something’s wrong
You tried you’re best, you gave you’re all
Never give up on the artist that you’ve grown to know
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I don’t know when I and logic decided on takin the wrong turn
Makin my way to the cellar and clean up the smell of the dead where these songs were
A sickening fragrance of complacence, statements made up of strong words
Attic is in the basement there’s barely clarity, you’re all blurred
I'm over the shit and stereotypes of how to spit
I'll never be a rapper but I can't tell myself to quit
Cause thoughts swarm, these plots form on the screen like soft core
Believe there’s a lot more to watch for before full blown shock porn
Even though I swear I was already in the correct direction
There must be disrespectful condescendin inflection in the lesson
I'm bettin that it's 90% of rappers of my complexion
Can't spit a verse worth a bit of shit to catch attention
One outta ten retards that grab the mic don't have the right
To step in a booth ain't got the facts of life, you ain't got the matches or the fuckin gas to light
The dimmest flickering fading flame cause you ain't half as bright, won’t catch and bite
Sit back and write the mediocrity that you like, I snatch the mic, I’m black and white
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6. |
Plays Calm With Napalm
02:52
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I'm the first chopper that will be coming outta Pittsburgh
Chipped and I'm slippy but please don't ever call me yinzer
While I'm sippin a sixer and spittin a blizzard
And flipping the bizird, never wanna hear you ever call the wizard
Even though I know you know you're not in Kansas anymore
Standing like a broad, ruby reds are demanding you man up
And take it on camera, your make up just ran
On my snake and did damage, I thought I could manage clamage like I’m doin porn
You famished? Need some beef to eat before you vanish?
Trouble in your vantage, camping under a tent that someone planted
Dammit I just nailed it, hammered on the head, the shape is bent
I can and will let you redeem the brand ya stand by
No one in my city could say it so pretty, is he dizzy from staying so busy
And steadily spreading this napalm, plays calm when the demon's unleashed in me
Hey mom, never thought I could twist ‘em up and make ‘em living
Added some energy, Frankenstein when I’m in a beat
Every other enemy is just somebody with a mic
Breathing too heavily and I’m speaking so steadily
You can have your heaven me and Satan are lovin on this life
Fast talker, yup chopper
I might offer the part of me that's half monster
Though all of me is a beast, follow me and believe
Other emcees are deceased, OD’s a king, can’t stop him
When everything you hear is just the same song
That’s why we stay strong and we play calm with Napalm
I got it, oxymoronic fire flow so cold
Legend born of a jackals bone then grown
Started palpitation, heart beginning preparation, presentin’ hesitation
Proportion blown too long
Joshua’s horn had torn the walls of boredom
Inseminate you whores, shortly after I’ve lured them
Have you read the foreword, d’ya meet the greeting recorded?
I’m a machine and my battery is never gonna drain before I
Tell a story about me running my mouth
Becoming a god, or Satan cause I’m underground
Living breathing monster, the unfound Martian
Autopsy showin a beast, approach me with caution
Beyond capable, relatable, Ego inflatable, create a full version, Fuck, not playable
Hate-able? Debatable, Never take a hold of my full potential energy that you can’t deny is sustainable
Had a second to breathe
Bleeding irritation has been getting to me
Feed into temptation, spreadin my seed
Believe me when I’m sayin that I’m letting it be
But the demon has been waiting for me to be setting it free
I keep it in a box that has been dented in
These things I keep on shaking are no longer making me calm
When I think of speaking I create the sound of detonating a bomb
When everything you hear is just the same song
That’s why we stay strong and we play calm with Napalm
Can you feel the heat I’m emanating from the weapon
Of mass deconstruction, of mass deconstruction
When everything you hear is just the same song
That’s why we stay strong and we play calm with Napalm
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7. |
The Positive
04:28
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It’s been a journey, the rides given thrills
There’ve been times where I was missin wheels
No emotion, no motions, the river’s still
Kept floatin’, still copin’, there’s a way if given will
I scampered, I tampered with evidence
Guess I tried changing the truth, in a sense
I haven’t done anything stupid in a minute since
The last time that I had to ask for forgiveness
I’ve lived so many years doing such dumb shit
Became associated with what you should not fuck with
Took a toll on who I was, though I had my fun
Memories forget but karma doesn’t
It’s the fact that I made it here to all of you
And it’s amazing that you could hear the call to you
You’ve responded to all of it, this is the positive
That I was told that I would find if I’d follow through
Every day I feel it getting better
Even when we feel it’s hard to love
There’s a tie that’s binding us together
It’s knotted so there’s no stoppin us
Any time we feel it might be crashing
You know we’ll be hoppin off that bus
Hitch a ride, going down a different path
And find a new place, we’re enough
Created 2, given 5
Surrounded by these people, is me livin life
All I used to do, just isn’t right
Now I see why all of that was criticized
You need someone to back you, I have that
Not to try and change you when you’re abstract
See through the differences and get passed that
So I can love every moment they get to sit on dad’s lap
We got a full house, I’ve played my cards right
Lost a bunch of hands but I’ve always had far sight
When the chips were runnin low I’d look to starlight
Make my wish and focus then I’d start my
Ascension to the place that I found
You cannot find yourself till it comes around
Me, a poetic father, I love all of my kids
With my queen right here, leading this CrawOtey crowd
Every day I feel it getting better
Even when we feel it’s hard to love
There’s a tie that’s binding us together
It’s knotted so there’s no stoppin us
Any time we feel it might be crashing
You know we’ll be hoppin off that bus
Hitch a ride, going down a different path
And find a new place, we’re enough
I guess you gotta learn that even when it’s perfect, it’s just not simple
You really gotta listen, you gotta pay attention, only way you’ll get through
Unconditional, heart positioning, open up the cage and let them play
Love ‘em like it’s the last time you’ll ever see their face, everyday
I’m grateful, I am actually very grateful
The missing puzzle pieces now fit and I’m thankful
Everybody gets angry, everybody seems crazy
But nowadays see my emotions move graceful
A beautiful ballet dancing ‘round the dinner table
Tiny little people make that face that seems painful
Insane teenagers sayin shit that be shameful
When I was their age I didn’t think of it as playful
Can’t help but love it, as nutty as it makes me
And you can’t predict direction, when it’s shaky
Had to get to the point where I was breaking
Apart and see a new way to piece it and create me
3 daughters, 2 sons roughly blended
May take time to see us all mended
But this is my letter to you all, that I’m sendin
Forever filled with love that’s never endin’
Every day I feel it getting better
Even when we feel it’s hard to love
There’s a tie that’s binding us together
It’s knotted so there’s no stoppin us
Any time we feel it might be crashing
You know we’ll be hoppin off that bus
Hitch a ride, going down a different path
And find a new place, we’re enough
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8. |
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I just wanna wake up and not wonder if the gift I was given is soon to be wasted
If I’m gonna get up out of these trenches and stop working my bones, I need ta view some new places
The scenery is tired, the color has dulled, the film has now aged and the credits are slow
The director yells cut, the producer was pulled, the station was changed, I resemble that show
I had my unique twist on the ubiquitous loosely fictitious list that guided a craft
Then to my surprise, the two wings collectively decided to split so it divided my staff
One side dreams, one side reality, once in a happy marriage, divorced under bad terms
Headlights bright with one direction in sight, yet stuck in reverse I still wander backwards
I wanted it, that career in music
Came a time when I feared I lose it
Greatest thing in life, captain steer that cruise ship
One-way ticket, I can’t bare the movement
It’s made me sick, my stomach turned
I am a fuckin lesson that wasn’t learned
I watch these fuckers, I’m stressin, too much concern
On How much more degradation that we must discern
The picture I’m paintin in writing is blatant
Whatever I’m makin, jus buy it and frame it
There is no replacement, I am only me
Welcome to the show, my life on for a fee
Please stick around when the credits have rolled
When I dried up my tryin, deposit my soul
In these pieces of meaningful thoughts that unfold
Never get caught up and sold
Recently I was given advice
Tryna reach a wider audience with similar minds
I’ma preach the type of honesty that gets ‘em entwined
I am speakin like it’s college for the illest in lines
Professor Overdost, got my doctorate
You feeble students wrote ya notes or is the plot too thick?
Google the rope-a-dope, I cannot stop the shit
The nest is cuckoo so I go from off the top with it
I’m a legend recently outta hidin
Was under that rock n roll, but I’ve been spyin
Can’t keep it simple no matter how hard I keep tryin
Once I start I keep climbin up to the stars to be shinin
It’s been too long, it’s been too long
I know that I deserve it all, I never did you wrong
I built up my precious heart and I calloused it
Too make it fuckin hard enough so there’s no crackin it
Now it's automatic retaliated talent
He can’t give it up, he has a sick habit
He’s been standing in the corner now he’s savage
He knew this was always the way that he would have it
No prep for when he’s back at it again
A lyrical masterpiece, rap addict in him
Influences moving fluently, laugh at the kids
That know his technique surpasses all them
A craft and style his own
Home brewed audiophile, gotta devour this zone
Mother fuckers in twilight, spaced out on their phones
No reality, sad to see how this will go
His story is definitely history in the makin
This glorified agnostic gore lover takin
The appropriate steps to reach his destination
Life’s a beach, he’s better in a dim lit basement
No dimwit, they said, the kid’s sick take him
To the clinic, change him, click click click, bang then
Steal that fuckin security blanket
That he stores in his warrior built fortress of hatred
It’s not hate that fuels
Yet confidence and love he lets safely rule
Strength and focus, he knows it’s an amazing tool
Notice he’s opened up the doors for his place to school
Stupid mother fuckas doing none of us justice
Only care to grant one of us success
Draw the curtain bring an end to this act that we’re stuck in
Out of envy, they’ll continue to fuck him
Automatic retaliated talent
He can’t give it up, he has a sick habit
He’s been standing in the corner now he’s savage
He knew this was always the way that he would have it
I guess I ran outta time or maybe not enough lives or I just wasn’t meant to play
I continued to insert those priceless coins into the slot but what I really needed was to reset the game
I’ve defeated bosses, I’ve survived eating poisons, I kinda feel like I levelled up
I’ve acquainted vast places, first place in races, so tell me why I can’t get the cup
Witnessed, in awe, the mediocre players mash the perfect pattern to go and get the big cash
And here I am learning the complex methods of a skill and I’ve adapted, still I sit last
Maybe someday I’ll walk upon that bonus round for a second chance at becoming the king
We all know that my AP is practically maxed out so be prepared for when I’m up in that ring
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9. |
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Even when the stars align, the direction still seems hard to find
Correction I know where to go, but a reflection of my past isn't far behind
Lanes don't change when you’re in a tunnel vision, so you get tomorrow blind
Hooked on bad mistakes and poor decisions, somewhere you need to draw the line
Palms up high, God knows why, you buckle because you can't find your place
How the fuck will you ever move on in your life
if you’re constantly dwelling on the time you waste
Believe me age will get fine with taste, Reading the same page in life creates
The strength of the stage where you just might debate
Your patience and rage and how you can decide your fate
It would be easy to play and rewind the tape
You make your name, shit, then it’s all a sign and date
The steps you take caution cause there might be snakes
When your gut is fuckin with your stomach never fight the ache
Now you're starin at a brick wall far down this big hall
Distracted by the women in the windows of the strip mall
Realize everything wasn't real in this reality
Feel your eyes twitching to fix this image of a fallacy
They’ve tried to take me to the bottom of the box that I was conjured from in hopes that I’d be a fucking failure in the end
I wandered up the spout you cannot drown me I’m phenomenal, no choking on my words, believe there’s never giving in
Tripped laces, traded places, stayed in spaces I was bothered in so I stepped farther from the truth and started spitting it
Never stopped the fucking progress cause it’s not how I would ever be offered up as a sacrificial monster, getting it?
I don't know now, what I should do
I know where I’m leadin will have everything I’m needin
Enough with competin, it’s that moment, silence your phones and find your seat and
I’ve located my stage, always updating my page
I am creating a phase where I’m invincible
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10. |
Heaven For Now
03:19
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Lord forgive me though I know what I do
It’s been my lifetime since I’ve given confession
I was 15 and no more looking up to you
The same time I looked towards sin and aggression
I wanted to feel, please believe I wanted to
But I was empty, the best me felt shit in your blessin
I was given your scriptures, heard nothin true
I would still open my heart and always listen for lessons
But I always got that silence
I’d hope and pray but never became pious
Laughed and ridiculed cause I connected with science
I share different views doesn’t mean there’s no alliance
Never your name in vain, I’m sendin my vow
This ain’t a prayer it’s a talk, I’m ending my letter and I’ll
Try to keep an open ear for when you get it but how
Will I receive it if I don’t believe in heaven for now?
And now I lay me down to sleep
Never have I ever been found too weak
To do what I need to but it’s hard to see through
The task at hand when I’m not allowed to peek
Raise me, bathe me in your light
I hope it won’t scathe me, yet save me from my fight
Why does it sound crazy? Acquaint me holy one
I ain’t me if I open the gate, needing your only son
I oughtta have the nerve to calm and quit
And keep quiet till I get to sing your psalms and hymns
There’s a fortress in my soul that’s blocking all of it
Fuck abort this then I’ll know if I can stop this ball of shit
From rolling and rolling in my downhill battle
My mother told me, she told me to be one of your cattle
Or sheep or lamb or one of your innocent children
A god-fearing man, just a simple civilian
Instead I wear the skin of this crippling villain
Without the knowledge at all of how I strip this old feelin
Hex on my head that stained the days of a rattle
Never baptized in the river, never gave me a paddle
I know it’s not your fault when I help myself down
I don’t know if you were with me when I felt myself drown
Don’t know if you were listening, those times when I prayed
But now I’ll never know because I never stayed
I’m sendin my vow
This ain’t a prayer it’s a talk, I’m ending my letter and I’ll
Try to keep an open ear for when you get it but how
Will I receive it if I don’t believe in heaven for now?
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11. |
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Damn, today is grey
Nowadays that shit seems like my amazing grace
Rainin through the daylight drained in, I faced blockades
Wished with several pennies that turned to dollars just to take my place
On a list of sickly survivors, covered in dirt, engraved with angst
I’m great but thanks for compassion, not askin for it, make your ways
To cathedral doors, you’ll know what you need me for, praise my blanks
When I come for heads, I’m cuttin em off with razorblades and shanks
That are laced in my tongue, while it sprays this waste
How fun, I aim for taste, awe bud, behavior saves the soul so chase this flavor with an ungrateful
Dose of remediation hey, not done, hey not done
How do you receive this length of bait?
You can only catch em with a hook, so I have to say debate
Hey, it’s your deaths birthday so you’ll have to save the date
No category for me, likely story for my label mate
This singularity still apparently we can’t view the same
Web page blocked, restricted yet I see through the pane
Callin it a screen that won’t shift the shit out, soon I’ll change
Mumble my shit accordingly, then you’ll want more of me, I’m like you, LET’S BANG!
New breed, new style, un-annunciated madness
Dead fuck, dead child, a cum stain on a mattress
Too much of that loud, purses and designer fabrics
Watch the culture go down, only a few goose and mavericks
Sideways for attention, long ways for results
Don’t do it the wrong way, no room for any faults
Either kill your fuckin self or let my lyricism have the pleasure
Kill the spirit that will never build your merit, any measure
Of this freshmen class will pile up to zip
Amount to nothin, I’m out like a nip
Exposed and vulnerable I’m about to just RIP
Filled up and gassed out, your mouth full of shit
There ain’t no more shine left on these shoes
The sole is worn, why tread, only loose
Laced boots will track mud unless we can choose
To find a use for them old sneakers, did I get you confused
Sayin metaphors to single out the simple minded kids
This reminded me of when I stuck with sin and violence
It was pointless like the luxury of string less violins
Where’s the enjoyment in the music if I can’t get high on this?
I’m never gonna ever walk that mediocre sad and overrated
path you headed down just to make a buck or two
I don’t really give a fuck who you think that you impress,
but your impression of piece of shit is simply wonderful
That raw display of talent I just saw just made me fall behind
Why is money your only passion and have to capture it all online
Our hearts have been replaced by ugly wads of dollar signs
Rest in peace to poetry, the beating stopped, card declined
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12. |
Stab Mood
03:55
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Let the light shine
Bright enough that it may even leave my sight blind
I’ve been patiently waiting all of this life time
For the perfect moment to entwine me in my right mind
Come to think, I didn’t think I’d see my hands full
Yea, with issues that would help me to dismantle
Speaking of when I slip and need help from that damn hole
So I’ll do my best to give this world one less damsel
It’s all open, except the past is closin’
Leave behind the broken choices hopin’ they stay behind
That I chose to weave them outta dreams with hopeful replacements
I used to wish to change shit and then I learned erase it
Because of you, you kinda been a guide
I’ve learned and I’ve turned into what I knew I was inside
I’ve burned and I’ve earned bridges that hide the path I ride
We’ve proven to society we’ll ride but never die
Either way we drive forward with your little hand in mine
One day I awoke, to a new place and time
To this cute face, you taste so perfect with my wine
I was hungry and now I have a serviced appetite
Still to this day, I’m thrilled to say
You are everything I needed to be around
I will never be lost, I am found
It all began at the altar, few sips, few glances
Some gentle conversation and some rock n roll dances
Bits of rap and metal will spark a romance if
You choose the perfect soulmate to take the right chance with
It’s funny how the tunnel of love twists and turns
Through those shady neighborhoods, ya live, ya learn
You’ll get thrown down, blown out, tore up, sure ‘nuff
Hit the brick wall before ya find what you’re looking for, uh
Then there she came straight from heaven
A combination of the total, had a fateful seven
I finally got my wish on that date eleven
Eleven came through for me, it became a blessin
I needed that bottle shop, I needed it, I did
It elevated my personal well-being lifted
Me out of the darkness where I frequent hid
She helped me cleanse the garbage that the demons left
The sweetest thing that could’ve happened and I’m keepin it
One day I awoke, to a new place and time
To this cute face, you taste so perfect with my wine
I was hungry and now I have a serviced appetite
Still to this day, I’m thrilled to say
You are everything I needed to be around
I will never be lost, I am found
Do you take her?
Sure
Do you take him?
K
OK I’m pretty sure that there’s nothing left to say, nothing
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13. |
Unicorn's Hip Makeover
04:08
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I believe, that what I am, is just at bay to be perceived
No more past to relive, just a day where I’m relieved
When I stand up to those voices that say they don’t deceive
While their tiny little flashlights signaled only broken dreams
Each voice, one side, different tones, pathetic views
Constantly yelling over each other yet arguing separate feuds
Both demanding my compliance with no gratitude when credits due
Let it swoon, accept the bruise, lose the leftover hues, shed the moods
Many moons have come where I felt I dealt with the good
What I didn’t know, he wore a mask to disguise the skeleton that should
Have been painted black, it then would match, it watched me as I stood back
Unknowingly I looked passed all the questions that I could ask
Figures entered in and out, dissolving the revolving door
Never resolving more than I needed, proceeded with recalling wars
Hauling stored data from a cloud that I once thought I walked upon
Solely triggering the clock to start me back to when I stopped the bomb
Guess I gotta figure out who the culprit was back then
That fucking minion on the pulpit, I must know, who was that friend
Gather the scattered debris and solve it, I must bring about that end
To the smiling revolver, slit their throats and drag them
Out into the public, for a maiming all will witness
Claiming null to privileged, I blame that law is frivolous
Overcome the challenges, I say it’s my job, it’s business
I live to battle its flaws with speech and leave em odd with interests
When I climb to the ledge and I'm about to jump
Will you talk me down or did you help me up?
I’m looking up, somebody reached and grabbed me and stood me up
No one’s aware what I am cooking up, yea, the kitchen is hot now
No one is prepared for the jot down, are you scared that I’m hittin the spot now
I’m here, I’m the shit on the pot now, feel the chill in the air when I drop down
This is how I’m really feelin, above you all, watchin you kneelin
It’s the real me I’m revealin, linin you up for the killin
I found me just staggerin or bound and gagged and I’m
Fed up with negative messages, I can’t express what is happenin
Forward and back with the “this” and the “that” and my
Flight has arrived so I’m done with that traveler
I’ve landed, I’m grounded, I’ve planted my fuckin roots
I’ve gone up the chutes you stuffed me down but I’m loose
Shook off the extra skin and then I cut the noose
I used to care to obey then realized what’s the use?
Moveable parts and reusable heart in a damaged package
Pursuable art that can’t be average due to its manufractured
Program and handled with no care but I’m wired, yes
If I don’t blow apart right now it will be one of my all-time regrets
When I climb to the ledge and I'm about to jump
Will you talk me down or did you help me up?
I haven’t pondered enough about it, not even the slightest fraction
On how I wander up around it and how I display this type of passion
Where’s my market, I haven’t found it, pretty sure I might buy its casket
Unless it appears in the next few minutes I’m givin up the chase and I’m flyin passed it
Nope, I’m definitely not, my balls dropped and the engine was hot
My belly was churning, intestinal knot, I needed that yearning, then enter the plot
Was goin to Cali to get me a shot, instead I kept Pittsburgh, it lent me a cot
Years spent sleepin, drinkin the weekends, not teachin myself to be setting it off
Oh, were my fireworks inside lacking location of fuse
No, when I found one to ignite, it’s a dud and I’ve been payin my dues
Whoa, maybe this music fucked me up cause I keep stayin confused
Oh, I know what I’ll do, rebirth, reinvention, now I’m makin the moves
I’m a brand new man, with a brand new set of survival skills
They’re not coming to me, I’m goin to them, I need to see my rivals killed
Move through the shade, to remove their tongues, all in silence, still
Never admit to authorities, it was all in fun, just to find a thrill
When I climb to the ledge and I'm about to jump
Will you talk me down or did you help me up?
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14. |
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Listen here, I guess I wasn’t the brightest kid
I mean I was smart but my decisions, who decided them?
I look back and I can’t even believe that I was him
I tried losing sight of it but it’s just who I was then
I was a little boy imagination big and wild
Mother said I’d sit with toys, real patient, a simple child
In my own realm, playing, I didn’t get too loud
Except for torpedo man, they loved having him around
Watching Friday, the 13th at the age of three
Horror went and found a comfy seat in that page of me
These ingredients mixed with a teen sprouting angrily
Be prepared for the scenes you’re about to pay to see
Art’s been in my blood then music joined the mixture too
Once they disassembled who I was there is no fixin you
Like everyone I felt invincible, this is true
Not thinkin everything you’ve done, somehow will stick with you
Your bones, forever dense
What’s passed is present tense
You’ll never live this down
Same circus different clown
The weight is hard to hold
Your garbage far too gold
Twisted face in this crowd
Same circus different clown
I became a product of my environment
An adolescent with a messy bed, still I'd lie in it
I didn't have any answers but I believed science did
So to this day confused to say I don't know why I am
Slightly slippin to psychotic when asked simple questions
Probably cause the stupid shit I was accused of, built the tension
Oh yea, you know what else I forgot to mention
Talk down to me and I might deviate your septum
Alleviate the next one, you haven’t seen the hateful spectrums
The demons label these enabled genus fabled nexus
Beings that inhabit me, three unstable sections
There’s a halo, two horns and a few cradled emblems
Been a father my entire not so somber adult life
Years of heavy usage helped me wander to fault lines
All of this has added up to the greatest me of all times
A clown of different colors and painted dreams I call mine
Your bones, forever dense
What’s passed is present tense
You’ll never live this down
Same circus different clown
The weight is hard to hold
Your garbage far too gold
Twisted face in this crowd
Same circus different clown
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15. |
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Don't be careless or might inherit the madness
of your merits and badges, bruises too scared of your passion
when you stare at the past, you aware of what happened?
Staring at the mirror nothings really clear why you’re laughing
Finally there’s a family, understanding and backing
Your full potential, accept you, fill the void where you’re lacking
Oh boy keep on hacking the black and white decoys as they’re yapping
Verbal color spectrum wrecked them guess not ready for lights, camera action
The mic is slicing through your righteous fashion
This knife of mine is so right to have when
I know I own this as long as I'm rappin
Who can hold a tone to this throat so raspy?
You can swallow the bone I've thrown keep gaggin
On your words we've heard they've turned so ragged
Imitations repeated, defeated the stations, not needin
The spacious places I'm waitin to invade these attics
I take this ugly beaten box and throw all my words in
Not knowing how they'll come back out well, kinda makes nervous
Will they make the least bit of sense, like saying fish fly and birds swim
Or that a married mother of one still considers herself a virgin
I gnashed my teeth and bit the priestess ladies' breast
A Better man, a veteran, I see the weakness in your best
Leave ya sleepless in a breath, Believe I need this peace for rest
Leave a piece of me to test, to see what keeps my genes relieved of stress
I eat, I feed, ingest, Repeat, repeat, repeat processed
Meat that never bleeds, so cheap and neat, cleanly hands and feet
And always Sunday dressed, complete and Sunday blessed
Up and down, kneel to the ground, the image of a mundane mess
Preach and teach me scripture, pictures of your intellect
I find more useful truths in youthful groups of sluts on the internet
Bring me that crying mothers lying mouth no doubt I'll enter it
Here’s a load of new ideas, will she swallow or attempt to spit
Dropping eggs between them legs then I come in with sentiment
Yea she's scared but I don't care, expected her to be hesitant
When she opens that Oval Office I'll be playing president
After I cream my seeds into her seams she'll believe her child is heaven sent
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16. |
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I’m thinkin I may be in over my head, seein these demons all night in my bed
Lookin like women temptation is fed, drainin me makin me play like I’m dead
Covered in fluids, they’re white and they’re red but the black colored iris is frightening
To the point that I’m havin this shortness of breath, I’ve resorted to sex with all sorts of regrets
This sorcery forcin me to obey all commands and they’re preachin “WORSHIP ME!!”
I’m sure to see horrible teeth gnashing me and remorsefully keeping score for me
Every scrape of the sharpened incisors digging deep in succulent flesh
It’s causing me to be a lunatic, ‘I’LL SHOW YOU A TRICK”, what a fuckin mess!!!
I was tied to the posts, caked cocaine in my nose, choking on the residual drips in my throat
With a hand written note from the blood that’s been soaked on the pillow where I pray I awoke
I was bound to the slab as she still tried to entice me with a brooding demeanor
So she dropped to her knees and cleaned me, indeed I was soon a believer
I’ll induce you I’m the dirty one, I’ll burn you with my serpents tongue
You’ll scream so loud, you’ll burst you’re lung, seduce me or I curse your young
How the fuck could this be so real, I was asleep now amazed I can feel
All of this time she was hiding inside of the one that I loved and just waiting to kill
But I cannot let this happen her tendrils were attachin, violent attackin
My body was draggin back to her cavern so she and her creatures can feast on what’s left of my being while bathin
My speech is being stripped like my skin and their clothes, how the fuck are they reaching orgasm?
I must be released from this chasm, wake me up, pretty please cause I’m passin
It’s all dream but I see I can’t grasp it, and ending to me I can’t fathom
But maybe it’s blessed, remove all my stresses that I can’t address in good fashion
You’re such a good fuckin wind up doll, how big I can feel when I’m so small
You will not make it back this time from falling asleep cause I have you and I want all
Somehow I made it free from her grips, free from her teeth and the seizing of hips
She’s after me with all her evilest fits, she’s a glitch, how the fuck can I flee this bitch?
Wake me up from my sleep, why the fuck can I not find a form of release from this?
The pain has now peaked, you got what you seek, what more could you need to feed on it’s
Just a game, a flavor she craves, a succubus that haunts all of your neighbors to make you afraid
Enough to just painfully take all of your “oh my gods” and tangle your faith
Watch if you repeat and how say all her names, she will come to reap, claim you in your sleep
Fuck you and eat all of the brains that you keep, she’s tearing off my flesh like it’s savory meat
And if I woke I’d start to pray to never see the blackened eyes of “As U Dem” gazing at me
When you kill the lights and close your eyes never ever start saying it in threes
I didn’t believe it neither, just a tale, a legend, not possible or able as it seems
It started as a beautiful dream, then she drains all that you are and takes it and leaves
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17. |
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It was never real clear which way to go
Doors open up for me and then I watch them slowly close
The sound, the sound of it slamming down
Is when I’d realize I lost what I had found
No recollection won’t be a re collection
The monotone reality seizing the inflection
The knowhow, the instinct, every familiar face
Became blank, it all became blank
As white as the sheet where I scratched my next day’s plans
Then I misplaced the world that was sweating in my hands
The hourglass is tilting back as I trembled in the sands
Soon I’ll rewind it all again, back to the reprimands
The demands, the boundaries, the lack of best to know
The last time that I’d show myself intact to never grow
Just a sad display that’s acting out an asshole’s severed soul
The real me will never show, that me will never show
It comes down to this
Reality is fake, only believe in what you make
It comes down to this
To meet god is just a death, to feel pain is in breath
It comes down to this
All you know is what you don’t, faith is frail to hope
It comes down to this
What you see ain’t always real, but it is when you can feel
These lights have grown dim
As I walk towards the door, I wonder if they know him
That me I thought I was and never became
Let them tell me who I am, then I let it remain
Why did I have them shape me?
Manufractured a mold and they produced a fraud
If I was in a dream, I’d wake me
No need for enticement, no use for a god
I willingly let the curtain close before my final act
Pulled my courage from the velvet ropes and I couldn’t hide the fact
My sound was so detuned that I had to deny the track
From being played for the public eye, now I must rewind it back
The fantasy, the mirage, the oasis, the refuge
The happy place, I’d like to make my personal test tube
Where I gather my culture and grow a new me to confess to
Maybe then I’ll believe in that me more than the one I sent you
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18. |
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I sit in this suburban house, tryna sneak through word of mouth
I'd love to get the message through but I can’t scratch the surface out
Or muster up the courage I'll just tumble over verbs and nouns
Offer up some positivity and feed some purpose now
We have our fun, our laughs, our ridiculous memes
To add a shade over the controvert political schemes
Continuously take for granted some of the simple things
With sick society interests and the image it brings
Adapt to an age where information’s in our hands
Abuse it for the wrong usage and portray a village dammed
What happens when the flood opens the gates to fill the land?
Our anthem becomes un-national and we're raised to sit not stand
This world is self-imploding largely on religious views
Minds and bombs exploding partly cause the figures used
Police and citizens are throwing shots at different hues
Media has been controlled to point you towards the hinted feuds
GMO’s in mass production to feed the growing crowd
The cancer in our cells to keep the system slowing down
The televisions static to confuse the knowing how
What, when, why and where manipulations going now
Buy this bigger better thing, get a bigger better you
Pay no attention to the curtain that veils the “never do”
Strap on your leather boots, sure to meet the weather soon
As it changes for the cleansing, then I’ll see you when it’s through
There was a simple time when we lived to 35
Technology and development trump that chosen life
Medication’s now a business, survival’s overpriced
Unless your credits endless, death will never close its eyes
Rivers running red from oxidized metals in our waste
New, improved, needed products reveled in our face
Dehumanizing all to come, unsettling our grace
Feed our malnutrition, then they left without a trace
“Somewhere over the rainbow…”
The bloody baby pictures posted up and down the street
The ringing of alarms is starting to really sound as sweet
As the chinging of the change that’s clangs all around our feet
Falling from the hands of children that had never found their seat
Just keep mixing up chemicals for new ways to get high
The future’s, a vision at least you have a few days to get by
The epidemic is astounding, the amount you’d pay you’d think why
Give them a second chance just to make a few survive
Western and eastern worlds in these civil wars
How many boys and girls must go and get awards
For the number of heads that they can stick on swords?
Post it on the internet and boast, about this shit, on boards
News is strictly negative or boring to our ears
Views are instant credit given for a lack of peers
We sit behind a keyboard preaching tips on living life
Then list all of reasons, teaching kids, what it isn’t like
I really hope there comes a time when we can see a change
Before the day we all are blind from screens that need arranged
Try to fix each other’s lives and speak one and the same
Language, not the dialect but understand me when I say
That I care too much to just watch the falling of our people
It’s sickening to know that we continue to breed this evil
Imagine a fuckin world that you were seen as equal
Pretty goddamn shitty that these are the heights that we would steep to
“Somewhere over the rainbow…”
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