no medication or cure for how sick i am attemping to get you addicted to the shit i can do i plan to jam you with everything i am you ain't speaking my language bitch, i can't understand you killing this chumpy, it's feeling like the building is jumping still standing on the ceiling above me, outta my mind but you find how to deal with this monkey on your back, put a bag over his head hear him gasp his natural gas He’ll keep kicking after the fact that he has realized that he is passionate in becoming his own species, phone home with his lone ET’s subscribe to a new focus on life in both these screens so many words to abide, Emcees Reese's peace is selling death holds a profit so greed we see so does a thought so too often I speak greasy my speech is so smooth but it stains, can you please clean me? through the grit and the grime, the light's lit and it shines brightly i might be crippled but I still look at the next prick in line and think he can't be me my degrees come when words squeeze through these teeth thank all of the weaklings and weak links that believe we equal people, you can't leap, I’m too high, seat is too steep, so don't try when I’m feelin the heat I come by need you to speak a breeze please i live, sleep, dream, fuck, eat, bleed and breathe steaze This music’s my go to bitch, only matters if she’s pleased i don't give a shit if the mainstream sees that i'm a human centipede gene spliced with bees knees and the cat's meow, more like a roar so you back down contortin the whore when she passed out, we'll surely divorce where we're at now too poor to abort the pitiful war that we started so many short and miserable years that were born and parted just to move pass the pain we endured but we've hardened these veins and now the world is the crack house that needs me fiending for a line of genius, "geez IV me, choppin out a 16 plus, if it will ease me I beg and plead OD just please don’t leave me" you tossin salad when I leak see i'm a talkin asshole that spits fece

I never said that I’m the best, doesn’t mean that I don’t know it you never heard my chest, doesn’t mean that I won’t show it When I reveal the X, you’ll eat what’s below it Try to remove the bricks, I mean my ribs, there ain’t no blowing Down my house, it ain’t no straw, it ain’t no twigs, this shit’s a fortress life is way too short its, a midget to your death There can be no room for rest, bedroom is for sex like kissing a forest, with all this wood on your lips Done being dumb, I wasn’t speaking, I was voiceless Telepathy you idiots didn’t mind me with the forceps Forcing you to give birth to new ideas, no abortions “Feed us with your fetus, fresh and new”, can you afford this? You need more? This addiction you’re bored with Sure did worship god until you adored this Mouth, throat and tongue, main ingredients to my warships portions of these proceeds won’t be going towards a chorus The Captain needs no hook to lure the bait, These whores on fours can wait to fornicate, The more they wait, the more the lord will hate and board the gate She sells herself down by the shore today, hungry for that steak, it’s not just pork she tastes, poor so c’mon pour the waste the color, the flavor, the shape that they gave her Love list like a waiver, cut wrists like a savior a tongue for a fork and a knife she can savor, oh they forced labor It’s not working for her but she works so hard Callouses on Callouses, prints are scars I’m sick of seeing how shitty these humans are being I’m kicking and screaming, I’m getting my feeding protection from leaking, The venom I’m speaking, I get up, I’m breathing, I let em start thinking I let up, while creeping I’m fed up with dreaming of better reasons on how to sever the demons that keep from ever believing In God, angels are demons and demons are figments Of an imagination with Achilles ligaments Find that one sore spot and you can make a difference Let loose of one more thought and show your ignorance keep the clothes on the shelf, nothing to hide when I begin cannot pose as someone else, pour the thoughts that sit within I’m the dose that saves my health, the key the ignition I Overdost on myself during my intermission

Finally opening a brand new chapter The tale I speak only book that I read now I’m startin to see happily ever after Not quite but the headlights, looking like spot lights wit laughter I stand and I stare and it carries me and I cannot move any faster Are these cement shoes? Can I get a wet suit? Breathing water ain't enough must fish pick at my skin too I have tried to slip from this but shit it is a big wound no matter what the damage is there's bandages that fit you Open your little pink belly to be exposing what you hide But we’ve clogged everything that’s been working inside, need a salvation device Sanitation be nice, flotation, we’re waiting to be saved from this life Bring the rapture, unwrapping presence, stone cold eyes, I’m frozen, I am ice Nice baby blues and nobody knows what it’s like Nobody holds onto me as tight, nobody shows these curtains closed and these lights have dimmed This ball still spins, this heart still pumping just for fight Even with broken wings, I attempt this flight You have no idea the speed bumps that I hit I must be a fucking toilet, cause I took so much shit I did my best to enjoy it, but I had no luck with Blowing up big and growing up a fucking grown up kid You have no idea the key bumps that I did I must be a fucking toilet, cause I took so much shit I did my best to enjoy it, I had no luck with Blowing up big and growing up a fucking grown up kid Because of this I can be a dick, if I’m provoked to be I have eaten so much shit that it’s been choking me My wife started fucking around cuz I’m not connected emotionally It was just a matter of time ‘fore we would get that lovely boat to sink thought I was doin all I could be doin to keep that boat afloat for me Turned out, it not true and they knew what we’d do, they sensed the stench in the ocean breeze Pathetic fixation on fictional faces, asphyxiate gossip, no focusing Hopefully, daughter and son will see, better off broken free Puttin myself in too many positions and fittin in clothes not sewn for me Listening, caring and giving a fuck about what everybody else throws at me guess they know best, they know what’s in my chest, impressed they know what goes through me They’re in my head and walking around but how? I don’t even hold the key Locked the box but kept watch and fought so many evil little demons that’ve chosen me thinking I let ‘em peak in but I never ever let em once see me start opening curtains shut you worthless slut keep working but you’ll never grow to be Pleased or at least even close to me, you kept you from knowing me You have no idea the speed bumps that I hit I must be a fucking toilet, cause I took so much shit I did my best to enjoy it, but I had no luck with Blowing up big and growing up a fucking grown up kid You have no idea the key bumps that I did I must be a fucking toilet, cause I took so much shit I did my best to enjoy it, I had no luck with Blowing up big and growing up a fucking grown up kid (I’ve wasted so much time and I don’t even know why It’s just a part of life that I must leave behind) I really gotta get my shit together every time I got it figured out I’m wrong when you think you got your life planned out forever Then the violin plays a different song Cover me with mud to see when I slithered from the sea To attempt an evolution into something ugly Ingesting more drugs to be the all powerful bumble bee Fuzzily feeling effects and hungrily searching just to fuck the queen not meaning too much to me, then I became stuck between Trying to birth an emotion or just straight ripping out the guts they need To stand up on feet that bear sores collected while pummeling Through barren lands of broken hearts that cried out so lovely There was once love in me, it’s still there just underneath Layers of confidence and closed gates that were locked when I was under siege By angels with trip wire to keep me consistently stumbling ideas that demons have just been misleading and the reason for my crumbling truth’s in, proof’s been the sole excuse for my soul’s binge wholesome words that still get cluttered by excess patches of cute skin That lines these temptations walls with packages of new sins Haven’t been kickin this habit I’m hittin, I’m lying here lying with bruised shins So what to do when your lost for nerves but need to use them There will always be something you had in the past that will open up and let you in One very important lesson I’ve learned is to tie up loose ends Remembering every bridge that I’ve burned could potentially turn up a true friend This I have not seen goddamn believe you me I am the star of my own indie movie finally opened new scene, Gotta a new screen, Gotta new script, goddamnit I feel like a new me You have no idea the strength that it will take Till you finally decide to think clearly and you break Down The walls that keep you stuck in this massive grandeur state Of darkness, know where your heart is, and exhume if from its grave

Hello JDO and associates. I was a calm boy, now, I’m ferocious. There was a time I didn’t think angrily. Voices in my head, saying “no saving me.” I wanna be a hero not nemesis. Take me back to NES and genesis. I know I can’t do that just let me wish. Tell me there’s a better time than when we kids. Okay, here’s a question, now answer this: I bet you can tell me who was your first kiss. Cause that was special, here’s the next quest… Think about every girl that gave you sex. It doesn’t grasp you the same and have a warm memory Very first kiss is a good remedy To put a smile on your face, like hanging with your boys. Before playing with emotions, there was playing with your toys. Riding bikes, under streetlights, late night hikes In the woods, George remember “flying man” in the skies. Didn’t party every night, hardly any fights On Lime Street had some of the best times. Football with Printz, he sacked the quarter back. A big ass dog, but one of the best I ever had. He was like a brother, always by my side, he lives in my mind. So I know he never died. This when it all started to begin Everything wasted and the band sick end. The main 3 were me, Nomis and shred. You were 2 of my best friends and goddamn You helped me get to here and I got far. Maybe I’ll be known as McKees Rocks star. Until then, I throw up the eternal power fist. To every friend that ever helped me, my ode to you is this. Keep your head up, You know that it will soon get better. Just know tomorrow is a new day. The sun will shine, it can’t always rain. Let me see your smiling face. He man, go bots, guts, G. I. Joe Monsters in my pocket, yellin out “thunder cats hoooo” By the power of grey skull, Skeletor went AWOL Daestro and commander were both left with their face off Card board buildings and lighter fluid I’m on fire, leaving all the past ruined Shish-ka-bobs on the hill, Sombut know how to do it Seen some ghosts in the woods, but how could we ever prove it Jorge’s grandpa with his date, Out in the VW listenin to a tape Tryna stay out the way, and then, here he came Needed 20 bucks, damn that girl needed paid BB guns and fish eyes in the cricks, Slim Jims thrift stores in the mix Parkway center mall, x-men in the arcade Seldom seen, a perfect scene where memories are made woods to the mount sunrise to sunset Street lights came on and still not done yet slide the hill sides, chin checked a few times Tubing through the snow over gaps on tree vines Broken roads and broken homes Cancer throat nick with his spoken tones How did a dead end become and open road? Where we bobbed and weaved and we were s’pose to roam It was life, we were young, we were s’pose to live it Waste the night, have fun, use what we were given Play cards, decide if we were just a brick in The wall they built up and try to force you in it I found the perfect clay and a nice hot kiln I sculpted me, I’m proud of what I’ve built may have some flaws yet I stand here still Even the greatest work of art will be ridiculed and killed Keep your head up You know that it will soon get better. Just know tomorrow is a new day. The sun will shine, it can’t always rain. Let me see your smiling face. Roller-blading these brick roads. Getting big holes in my jnco’s. Skatin gets hard when it gets cold But I did it cause I loved it now let’s go Responsible for my actions, I did this Future resides on the past and I get this Life has a funny way, to get round a big mess So I sit back and watch now that I can rest Dreams came creepin Every day, every night, every day, every night No time for sleepin Eyes close when you take the last breath of your life Always thinking I was missing something, but what could it be I started seeing The hands of time won’t slow up for me Keep your head up You know that it will soon get better. Just know tomorrow is a new day. The sun will shine, it can’t always rain. Let me see your smiling face.

I was born right into her hands She picked me up to make sure that I’d understand Exactly what I’m here for and made me what I am Gently opened up the door to becoming a man carved a little statue outta what I is To show me how proud she was after what I did She whispered sounds and I picked who I was from it The attitude and the state of the mind to live When I caress her sweet lips I’m a stronger me She keeps a cozy lil seat where no one can see then I drift away to always find me in her arms To comfort me and continue to reach out for the stars She makes me feel I have complete control Of everything and that this life can be beautiful Her body trickles through my veins and she’s in my soul When I don’t know where to go, my baby let’s me know It’s so crazy, how she’ll make me behave She’s everything I’ll ever need Cause I know that she believes in me First glimpse, she got me on the hook She shot me a look, started to jot my book Chapter after chapter she mastered this bastard Through hard times and laughter, time passed faster I passed her my love notes and sassed her Bashful, it took some time to fully grasp her I wanted to have her, head first from the rafters No matter how far she’d fall I’d always be there to catch her It’s so crazy, how she’ll make me behave She’s everything I’ll ever need Cause I know that she believes in me She was scared sitting on her spiral Going downward I thank god that I found her I do for her what she does for me What’s hers in mine and what’s mine is ours I thank her for fillin’ my heart wit blood I thank her for killin’ the tears that run I thank her for buildin’ the walls that block Out everything that would make me like everyone I thank her for stayin right by my side I thank her for playin wit me through my life I thank her for sayin do what I like As long as I feel inside that what I’m doin’s right She said whatever you wanna do, do it It may hurt you, just push your way through it Goddamn, all along I knew it, amusement I would find my greatest love in music It’s so crazy, how she’ll make me behave She’s everything I’ll ever need Cause I know that she believes in me “The balls in your court so don’t fall in those shorts Or you’ll be showing the world what we’re calling pulled pork Just follow the sport, take it all and abort Or be a sweet pretty girl and please swallow the horde…”

Pullin up in some dickies and a t-shirt Black flex fit, fittin ta make my knees work Get a few down the hatch then it’s go time Tryna be the only thing that be on yo mind Got my sleeve on, could you forget me? Tryna make you wish you never met me But you won’t know me, til you left me Leave you drooling and fiending for moving on a wet seat A round of shots of the cheapest stuff The sweetest stuff, I can’t drink enough Don’t mean to preach but uh, we gotta drink it up Movin on to the next, we gotta see what’s up don’t drink tequila but the girls sure do When they clothes fall off, they come to see ya know who Get a kiss like dis, a little touch like that Only thing I know in life is that they will be right back You keep on drinking while I keep on thinking bout What I’m gonna do to you when you can’t say no No rational thought, a disaster but hot Let's add some warmth to your bed becuz it’s looking quite cold So do you wanna pop a bottle of Sutter home I can't afford all them shots of that patron No matter what ya drink they lead down the same road A little more conversation and little less clothes Who can hate a naked bitch, I’d hate to say those fake are tits I mean those tits are fake but it's just great, just place them on my lips Let’s take a drink or maybe sips, I ain’t afraid of baby slits hate to say I’m okay to take you home while your man baby sits My place is great so may your wish be made today just take your pick Your favorites are angry ish, wanna suffocate while I break a bitch I’ll say It’s not the craziest I’ve engaged in it’s stranger with Dangerous chains and dangling from hangers, asphyxiated gazes shit… Back to reality at the bar We actually added three girls while going back to our car They seen our swag but they need not know who we are On your knees, prayin to a god, shit you pray to a star Depends on the job, paid with memories or a scar Lookin for a little serpent who can dislocate her jaw Then pull it back together to gimme a number to call Too bad the alcohol makes me remember nothing at all You keep on drinking while I keep on thinking bout What I’m gonna do to you when you can’t say no No rational thought, a disaster but hot Let's add some warmth to your bed becuz it’s looking quite cold So do you wanna pop a bottle of Sutter home I can't afford all them shots of that patron No matter what ya drink they lead down the same road A little more conversation and little less clothes This is all game and I’mma keep on winnin So many girls to go around my world keeps spinning Just do what I know how, Just gotta make ‘em smile Life is way too short so I’m enjoying it right now This is all a game and I’mma keep on winnin So many girls to go around my world keeps spinning…

She tries to stop, got her by the hair until She finds the spot, she got it, she’s there and still She don’t do it like a coaster or a carousel She’s up and down, back around like a Ferris wheel I met her by the side of the road “Can I get a ride home, ain’t got no money but I can make your mind blown” Had to act quickly, tank was on empty This tiny little thing was actin real friendly “I’ll do what you want if you let me Just get me away from here, comprende? Don’t ask won’t tell, relax just chill Push the pedal on the right and my mouth will stay filled” started to grab me, Wanted to feel what I was packing Talk around town said I was full of shit and acting “What was true or false, should I give him bluer balls” Is what she thought while she unzipped my kakis then the moment came I went along with this question Will there be disappointment, when she gets this erection? Dripping and drooling over my midsection started believing in god someone gave this blessing little magician, had this trick She said, “watch this”, then poof, where’s my dick That was it, this girl’s about to take it home Placed me in her throat, never gonna make it home opened that cover and dove into that nice read. in need of a cute nude being that’s 19 goose bumps were Braille, couldn't hear anyone around I could read her like an open book if my hands trailed down

no motive behind the motion that I provoke But a notion that the gavel handles those who are broke Bethlehem and candy co-cane pixie sticks in our spokes Anything to slow us down and make us a bit dumber than our votes Bullied by the big island became the tyrant and host To the rest of the world still seen as a parasite with the most Smiling faces on mannequins as we share this great toast Counting fallen stars staring waiting for the space ghost Twelve after twenty is not thirty two nor is it a hoax see no parted seas and best believe Noah has no boats Umbilical cord of our faith keeps us hanging by our throats No biblical source will wash up embarrassment held by ropes String them together they’re frayed and weathered, here’s to our hopes Grab your coats, the cold is over yet it lingers and floats stench has become remarkable or so I read it in notes That we wrote, tried to avoid the bullshit, but we’re soaked No matter how hard we try and clean this mess there’s no soap They feed us till our bellies look like they will pop then they poke Out the babies eyes the families went blind when they woke Up to only find us choking on lies from a snake telling jokes a pretty fairy tale too bad we can’t end the show Just know, I’m gonna keep it up cause it‘s what I know. The more you feed my stomach, the more you think I’ll be full. All it does is give me fuel and room to grow Anyway to crawl out of this life, till the dirt is caked in my nails. Any day don’t care, waiting in line, wasting my time…

Do you know how it feels to know the angels gave up? I like the way the sky stays grey The clouds, their shroud hide what’s been made up Everyone hoped that there was hope for me I don’t read that much, don’t read into it No need repeat these words I say My head held high, the dead don’t lie I sit pretty comfortably with what I believe So, we’re born sinners? Thriving to be angels? But like kids and candy we’re seething as soon as temptation dangles Infatuation with fascination, whatever pumps currents through the cables We’re at a thick bricked wall, our engines fueled by fables Maybe my choices made me a monster, maybe my voice has made me an angel I know that different eyes see the world from their side, we see it at different angles Those times when you seen me in my shining light Others might have seen me in some depressing shade When you felt me right there with you close by your side they might have noticed me starting to fade Nothing’s to plan understand that your hands will continue to tremble and shake As soon as you think that monkey on your back has let loose of your skin then you finally wake To discover that all of the weight has been doubled and you must begin to attack a new day Everything’s gone, how did you let it go wrong, everything is the same “It all seemed right, till you figure out this is real life”

When I look at you, baby I don't see you anymore, no Your face is erasin What I knew before You’ve turned into something And I am not really sure Of what it is, I’m done with this We’ve reached an end So I'm on my way, you've learned how to hate what I've become No one has changed but nothing stays the way that it was We throw these words and these fists and these fights but the anger never leaves I know I can be what you want me to be, as long as what you want is me Your words come out of nowhere As sweet as I remember Your touch used to let me know Why we’re together The spark has been faded In search of something better I took the hint, that’s what I did I guess there’s an end So I'm on my way, you've learned how to hate what I've become No one has changed but nothing stays the way that it was We throw these words and these fists and these fights but the anger never leaves I know I can be what you want me to be, as long as what you want is me My walls are so weak, I'm so weak Why can't I find my way in? Can we still be....Could we still be happy? Happy....Happy...Happy with... Me for who I am, I’m a pervert, I’m a pig Sometimes I’m worthless when I’m in and I keep hurtin you again Another version of this verse I did I heard all that I said Want you to lose that shirt again so it’s me versus your skin I toned it down, honed it out, the way you’re wanting me Remixed it with the me I’ve known about, the messed up me I always see To find that piece of candy that you bit into and knew the sweet Inside that I decide to hide, no more diversions, will you please Not see me as your pet, view me as a human being I’m equal but you have a problem being on this balance beam The more weight you push on me to make it seem that you’re above makes me angry, I retaliate by not doing enough Stop complaining about every opinion I have and all I love Just cause it doesn’t interest you don’t mean I have to give it up If we can work on our deliveries, can make it so much more If you’re with me baby, I’m ready for… …Maybe you’re right, maybe we’re wrong Maybe the two of us should just end this song Maybe instead of repeating what we said Maybe we should rewrite the end… Another day, you’ve learned how to take what’s in your arms I’ve never changed just showed the true face that was in the dark We can say those words, we'll know what they mean, we’ll never want to leave I know I can be what you want me to be, I know all you want is me

Kinda surprised you never held it against me When I was walking in and out, never made you resent me Instead when I look in your eyes I feel like I’m ten feet tall With you in my life, it could never be empty at all I know I messed up but I made it my goal To never let you wreck this gift we picked and handed to you Look to me like I’m the guidelines, your instructional tool Understand that this cannot be planned no safe way to use Wanna help you fix mistakes before they are even made Just know I been in your shoes cause we are one in the same passed on so much of me, practically all of my traits got my personality, almost exactly my face One of these days lady you won’t need me to save you There will be someone to fill that space so enjoy and be thankful no matter how amazing they are at everything that they do I’ll be the sunny skies and soft clouds for my angel I wouldn’t be me without you No matter how rough it gets, you get me through You keep my heart at the perfect beat To keep my soul singing that song so sweet I am who I am all because of you I don’t understand how I did it all again Ten years later and another mini me is here Second time around I was given a tiny little man I love hearing him say daddy and knowing that he wants me there A grunting little soldier he had to prove them wrong Tell this boy that he can’t, does it with a smile on his face You think that you can stop him just because he is small He has the heart of lion behind that compact cage Can’t help but to melt even when he’s up to no good Puts on those eyes and that smirk if he can get away then he would He’s the cutest little thing that stands about 2 foot If you don’t have one of mine you’re gonna wish that you could Sit back and watch this dude take off across the room Looking for his tractor and that sippy cup oh he lost his juice It’s tubby time, clean that belpy, then it’s off ta snooze Kissy sissy ni-nite that’s what monsters do I wouldn’t be me without you too No matter how rough it gets, you get me through You keep my heart at the perfect beat To keep my soul singing that song so sweet I am who I am all because of you I can’t hear a sound over all these girls around what should I do it seems no time for me and you In the morning you say that everything’s OK I know you’re right Hear it from my side It’s not always smiles and laughs Let’s hope that rocky path is in the past We won’t sit back and watch our lives slip passed So far you been the world’s best Dad I wouldn’t be me without you two No matter how rough it gets, you get me through You keep my heart at the perfect beat To keep my soul singing that song so sweet I am who I am all because of you

They don’t want you to realize what is happening around you They need us dumb, unintelligent, unable to see through their screen All of a sudden no one could pay attention for more than a few moments While in those moments they are deciding how your life will change Without your say-so, humanities disease is itself And we are just watching it die. Look around. I can rant and speak about All this bullshit, yeah it’s entertainment But don’t let it blind you from what is living right in your living room Ready to be rudely awakened surprised by tha fact you chose to take it beats keep bangin’, these dreams keep playin’ My voice more raspy, history needs makin’ little pussycats can sit and scratch and purr Even if you do I’ll never let off, before I get off on her And I ate pills, so I hope you came prepared To take this to the head and swallow it, I’m the one that’s spittin here It’s time to make you wish I’m not tryin’ to take your bitch If she likes my native tongue, She likes the way I kiss I make her wait fer this, anticipate I’m playin this it will taste so much better until that day I left confession for the audience here’s living proof That a question is the strongest weapon we can use You’ll learn your lesson and see more than dreams become the truth Wanna a blessing, here you go, I have been introduced Here’s my night light? I’ll hop on my trike The star in the north was the way to nice life The pen became a hammer and the paper was skin My words became the nails that brought the ink out of him The light still ain’t as bright, it dimmed out last night I lost my sight from things in my past like Morals, sanctity, love and my financial state momma tells me if I love Him it will be okay, Yeah Right! Ha, oh that’s how I cope, is that some sorta joke Got bigga things to worry bout, like reality and snortin coke Guess I gotta go and earn a monetary note Besides that’s the only god that we all only really know Have it and hate life, have it and love life Kill for it and make you feel like your above life hate to say I love it but I always want more cash right price we would all wake up with a sore ass Left, right, left, let’s all march in a straight line Bilderburg says it, guess it’s gotta be great, right? N A U, hey you super highway time And Africa is for the garbage we made today, Why? Cause china’s already being used to harvest organs The government are comin in for your kids There’s fields and positions that we’ll be forced in You have one kid, and pregnant, sorry, abortion. TV watches me We all have our own channel our lives are on the screen The signs are all around you, will you read ‘em when you pass Or get stuck between the lines of who goes first and who is last I am an American citizen (I am listenin’) And I too have believed the lies (But Why?) Cause our lives are played out in a market scheme They make the product look good enough to buy Now I can take a hint, I need to calm the shit I’m thinking out loud too much now I better call it quits Should I just have a bitch flashin’ her ass and tits sit back and wish we’d pass these accidents Up, up and away some nonsense for your conscience evil amongst us I’ll be forced to stop this Gather boy scouts, start wars, solve problems Sign up the soldiers before thoughts are blossomed Infect ‘em with ADD, McDonald’s makes the key It’s in the recipe, one billion sold Minimum wage and STD’s, a faggot child molesting priest Videos of fucking sheep with an eleven year old Killing kids through jealousy, abortion bins the new BC They say reality’s TV, I coulda been fooled Innocent proven guilty, money is spelled G. O. D. Girls are good for one thing, what else aren’t you told? Houses where there once were trees, why is it so hard to breathe? They won’t legalize weed but cigarettes are gold This is a preview to your movie, so get your pop and corn. Get ready for a journey through a mind that’s unexplored. I’m sleeping the trailer, while reaching sellvation I’m never making it to heaven, fuck it, and I’m keeping hell waitin Everyone wants to dip their fingers in this bag To have a little taste to say that I am something that they’ve had Am I reaching sellvation, am I reaching salvation?

Truth, proof, excuses and loose words used ancient pages Sacred stages, makin changes, facin’ hatreds through naked ages Crusades are playing card games and placin’ bets on peasants heads Presidency, kings and queens and their wealthy best of friends Let’s pretend we’re healthy and that you’ll help me When the rest of them have left the manger Cause god’s smile is now green The story has always been about tree So the more paper we make, the less oxygen you allow me So why don’t you all just take a bow And end the act and test the depth of the shit in which we’re drowning Can someone tell me how we should attempt to breathe in air That has become filthier than the ground we walk upon Our whispered prayers are turned off and on And this is where I found me driftin’ lost and gone To find something to believe that I didn’t quite feel around me I stop to ponder or conjure, but I wander And the space just grew fonder, and my patients no longer And I stand and rant and breathe and pant and need but can’t Quite see the plan that you all believe to be the answer I opened the rusty jewelry box just to see the dancer And if I believed in her in enough to gain just a little faith Then maybe, just maybe she would no longer be so fake Worship, I could scream I can feel the lord swim through my streams And there’s no more shit in my scenery But peaceful heavens that adore this new found dream Make believe, miracles? Coincidence Covered eyes and minds with sheets for instance this Tiny dancer will still be man-made no matter how much faith I gain Cause I wake up light-headed, but I still see no light ahead I start questioning heaven and whether or not the dead Have ascended and living better now that they’re out of their skin Is it such a sweet surrender when life comes to an end Are we peacefully together standing with a hand to lend And forever we’re indebted to every fellow friend Or is there a box that just blockin us from ever getting in The golden gate is just the coffin that time has us sitting in Our bodies become rotten and the bones are withering Memories are not forgotten and that’s the only heaven sent Just try and be remembered for something good that you did Believe in yourself at least there is proof that you have lived.

What everyone liked about me you must have loved it too much kept it as your own and chewed that piece of me up My skin used to love what it hugged onto and held it misses the part of my ribs where my heart sat on its shelf This helped me see a side I thought was rarer than god How could I fall for something that was nowhere near real at all It shimmered, flashed, as I walked passed the store window, I was sold I took it home tried it on found it not comfortable Me and it, just didn’t fit, shit I picked the wrong one It looked so perfect at first then each thread became undone None left, whoever sewn this together skipped steps They made this sweater with one giant hole in the center of its chest I guess that it meant I could feel it embrace all of this flesh Except the section where I needed protection the most from this mess You knew how to hold me make me whole and feel calm had no focus on my heart, the part that wasn’t real strong Pain is such an ugly creature Seems that’s what I like to make Seems to be your common feature And my most honest mistake Promises and Honest mistakes Flawless intake of what we never should have done You were my shelter but had pin holes in your roof You tried your best but the rain still leaked through Every drop that fell caused a small fracture from hell And when the hole filled with tears I made a wish in the well I’ll enjoy throwin’ every coin till it comes true But damn, I didn’t think I’d be broke and still want you I thought you would come to your senses, I’m dumb to Believe in the long run I’d be the one you run to But if you never see what’s wrong how could you ever know what’s right We lead each other blind when we both tried to show the light The sunspots of our love taught us nothing but a good fight A fist and punch and this is what’s drifted us from being tight I thought the current was calm enough that we could wade through What to do when the ground drops, I wanted to take you I meant to stay afloat and my intentions were to save you I clipped the rope, my life lined with false hope and I gave you Pain is such an ugly creature Seems that’s what I like to make Seems to be your common feature And my most honest mistake Promises and Honest mistakes Flawless intake of what we never should have done X marks the spot, shit too many already dug here treasure’s been picked apart and all that’s remaining here is worth what dear fuck it I Guess I’m stuck here, finally ran outta luck There ain’t much I can do or say that I haven’t tried or done We’re so done so I went and loosened up my laces Took my shoes off staggered into unfamiliar places every one I entered just a few more gates to Satan’s Cause no matter how fresh the air was it still carried your fragrance I thought when you went missing the prescriptions would cease I’d have the old me back or at least just a piece Or at least just some peace couldn’t believe the piece that would leave This machine can’t function correctly I tried to fix something to be What I didn’t realize was everything left me I gave it all to you just leaving myself empty 4 chambers with no prisoners, no visitors attending Presenting yourself so perfect, a smirk that was so befriending Pain is such an ugly creature Seems that’s what I like to make Seems to be your common feature And my most honest mistake Promises and Honest mistakes Flawless intake of what we never should have done

I’ve been asked too many times what am I actually tryna do Is it what I say in my lines that make me so different from you? Am I so wrong, I try to put out a sound that’s new to the ears? You wanna hear what you’ve been used to for years That’s how I start a career in this business? And make it everyone’s business only way to get anywhere what is this? Don’t change a thing for fame just produce more aural assault for these innocent victims Downloads, ring tones, cell phones ruined the reason people ever started to listen To music, not to get bitches or prove how cool you are wasn’t meant to be a mass system to fit in A way to interpret how emotions are written Bring to the surface new roads to be driven Suppose to be words from the soul, did you all let it go? Go tell me where should I take this? Is it wrong if I think too much when I make this? Just jot down the first little rhyme that I think I just shot my full load at one time in you deep Now you have a little piece of me growing inside When it grows, well, its mind, will work just like mine in bright black letters on the inner of his thigh Will be ‘danger’, closer, find out why Thoughts like these should not be legal This dick and brain are each other’s equal My mind is a weapon used without permission I’ll pull the trigger leave you all with a blessin Enough with the bullshit, gotta confession And a shaky middle finger for the people suggestin only way I would ever get recognition Is to buy in and try to make my lyrics accepted Make a top 40 hit and get some cash collected Wallet screams yes but my heart rejects it ink from pen and my hearts connected When it comes to the end I’m forced to respect it no exceptions and no regrets Cause I write how I like there’s no imperfections guess that I’m lyrically ambidextrous I have many different ways to display my message Try to block me out I’ll just hop your fences If you keep me in this box I’ll get more aggressive let me out I know I’ll still be as offensive Ain’t no way that anyone could ever stop this wreckage Try to make him pleasant, he'll remain malevolent The devil is definitely present in this boy named (boy named) Joshua David or overdost as I renamed him The new president, Kristiaan is the devil that I made (Kristiaan is the devil that I’ve made) twisted little pistol with no safety I never listened when they said to play safely Try to find a category you could place me BTF with AD, OD with L8D walk with my head held higher than the heavens sifting through a hand held game with no change battery’s always low and there’s no reset button I’ve adapted to the character to make it through the games Too many paths, come and follow my tracks mind is here and there hidden parts of this and that I mix n match, I’m like fists and claps I’m opened, I’m closed yeah you’ll taste the spit I have How’d I hit like dat, I was born with heat in me Inside and out lyrics flowin head to feet It’s a gift. can’t teach the way I speak It was buried deep but just within my reach gripped my dirty fingers on it and I gave it wings It’s my little demon I keep on puppet strings Feed him thoughts and I love every word he sings He’s me, and I’m a few of my favorite things And Me, I consist of saviors and kings And one jester who on occasion gives my stomach stings I’m amazing, who can say they’re done with me I’ma do what I want to make it to the next scene This is my game, my show, I’m the author With faith, I know, I became the father more my ears ache I’ll remain the bother Fuck it, I ain’t gotta prove that I’m a monster For the world to open up their hands and give me an offer It may take time to see who they lost here My crucifix is nothing but a cross hair When my barrel pops, you’ll watch me get off here My heart bleeds the dreams My scenes feed the fiends I can’t change that I’m just one creature Hope you enjoyed this multi-part feature I’m a goddamn novel intertwined with a comic strip A miniseries come to life and then the artist left Took all the negatives and made them somethin positive Became a picture book compiled of just awesomeness recipe, that’s bitter, so sweet A little spice, hint of sour, yeah a bit o’ me It’s time to start and break it down now It’s not often the schizophrenic is allowed out Do you want josh, overdost or my krist in the flesh? Oh gosh, I don’t know, which one might be the best One could make you wanna spit up your lung One could make you wanna get up and run One could make you wanna just fall in love Try to make him pleasant, he will remain malevolent The devil is definitely present in this boy named (boy named)

Where would you go at the fork in the road? Which way would you run from the fork in my tongue?… Had 2 cents for every time I’ve been fucked Made to feel useless, still used for a buck Til I went shoeless while running outta luck These bruises were inflicted for love Joyful android full of soiled soul and poor school Poisoned choices chosen left broken muscles in his torso Guarded by weakened sore bones, gardened and picked before old Enough to be mature and learn he can’t hide behind some warm clothes The world knows every soft spot that pokes your worm holes The ones that can’t be seen but sneak into corners when your doors close Secrets skeletons keep until they know their little boy's grown Feeding demons through your sleep letting you know that you’re home … Ring around the rosy, ring around your finger You really wanted to marry somebody who wanted to be a singer?… Tell me, fuckin tell me why’d you do it? What were you thinking, where was your brain and what was goin through it? Speak up, where’s your spinal fluid? Don’t fuckin cry, keep your eyes dry You think I’m stupid… Interested with what I get, ya see it’s how I stick myself Into this mess. Ridiculous how I always go and trick myself With decisions, I’m impatient how I hop right on and I’m sick as hell With this routine to leave footprints for a miss to find this trail To see who will follow this path with me saying, “farewell” Gripping just the tip of my tail, I no longer have a soul for sale Would you be interested if we would board this ship and sail? Into the unknown we'll find our home, what else…time will tell You with me Baby girl? Wanna be mistress or queen? Yeah, we’ll leave for the sea. Baby girl, just you and me We can live this life till no life left that we can give As the world turns, days of our lives, blah, blah, blah, ya catch my drift?… There is no meaning to the life that we’re leading but dreaming And it be the only meaning there is… If after I leave, I never come back Please remember me for good times that we’ve had…

Don’t think of the future we’re here right now past has passed do you see the bright lights now? They got their eyes on us, you know what I’d like now? Turn the lights down, get out these clothes and play fight now you got me pinned, I’m ok with this Stare at me with that squint, and playfully kiss Your collar bone to feel that skin slightly pressed against my lips Your eyes have let it known I’m in control, you grin as I hold your hips But we’re standing here in this crowded room Our eyes are locked on each other, we know what we’re about to do Neither make a sound, just simply follow through We stagger to the beats of our hearts that dance around the mood Each step a lesson taught, we’re writing history fingers tangled in this knot you can’t take this from me The puzzle seems to fit, nothing ever wrong with it Just tons of useless clutter that tried to hide this gift from me Wanna take a long walk through this place called life As long as we are by each others side it will be all right Let’s find ourselves a path no one ever danced down Make them all remember us, they’re envious, we stand out Just put your hand out, grab a hold of me Becoming somebody that somebody loves is all that we are told to be We can make our future great, shrug problems when they come know we can’t get lost again, you and I are one You couldn’t build a wall, let alone fence try and block me from the dented box the others left C’mere my lady, I’ll clean whatever mess You think is too much for me take, I’ll pass the test Got that 100 percent, it’s a day to remember You and I are one now I guess we can’t be severed Without the other part we are half of what we are It wouldn’t just be scar we couldn’t, keep it together Think the just the same, could only get better Cause each pain, when it’s paired with pleasure Only sunny days, no matter the weather Even when it rains we got the blues to make us smile I think I found my muse, I’ll get used to this for awhile Light my fire, lit my fuse, sparks flew through this old ghost town get behind the wheel and drive, hearts intertwined I’ll loosen this rope we tied, I’ll hang with you forever bound Wanna take a long walk through this place called life As long as we are by each others side it will be all right Let’s find ourselves a path no one ever danced down Make them all remember us, they’re envious, we stand out Just put your hand out, grab a hold of me Becoming somebody that somebody loves is all that we are told to be We can make our future great, shrug problems when they come know we can’t get lost again, you and I are one If there’s something that you want And you just cannot find it Well Just, well just give up And that’s just what you’ll get Wanna take a long walk through this place called life As long as we are by each others side it will be all right Let’s find ourselves a path no one ever danced down Make them all remember us, they’re envious, we stand out Just put your hand out, grab a hold of me Becoming somebody that somebody loves is all that we are told to be We can make our future great, shrug problems when they come know we can’t get lost again, you and I are one

Vultures will come Sutures will slowly be undone Who is afraid of the big bad wolf Run little rodents, devour you whole The demons are screeching and scratching the chalkboard The awkward walkway of echoed feet tapping And one by one, one by one, one by one they fall No one to protect me, my angels out on call Guardian, guardian, they throw the whole army in My army is just warning that they’re causing me harm again The darkened sick rooms of my mind found a key So it’s letting go of the fucked up things inside me Tiny footsteps once trampled my spine she said, “the power of Christ compels you”, you’re lying But the trails of the salt in her tears made a mark And the mark some creatures and monsters with hearts And when a heart is dissected, a temper will bloom Then the scars become a fashionable temple for you With shrines of gods that we call emotions All kinds of frauds that we rub out with lotions Sexual blessings, were you trying to pray I prey on gorgeous lips to kiss the cheeks where I lay In every fuck, suck, fist, punch, kiss, finger, scar, ache Shake, twitch, burn, itch and irritation that you make It caused a tremor, who was an artist and they drew up a map Threw me into the darkness with no light for the path An infant, retarded, self taught how to act You learn to feel hardened to the voices at your back It’s clear now, I have control. A dramatic syringe embedded in the skin of a drug attic Is, “I guarantee”, more beautiful than some thoughts I think Like clipping my lips off and watch them fall into the dirty sink Then I'll forever have a smile on my face, “are you happy?” You were probably better off when you had me But I was tossed out, lost, shot down, crossed, duplicated Mold, cloned, old drone got stupid, Waited for the right time to let Malisse roam Stapled his personality in front of josh “o, lord I know you’re in the crate too” Let me pick through my straw head to create you Big black eyes, fangs and middle fingers for hair I’m gonna make mine scarier than everyone made theirs Then aim a seven thirty seven @ the balloon Tied to the top of my spine, “see what you made me do” These words are reality, you can see ‘em You can feel ‘em they can touch you like a human being Some can use ‘em as a god, cause they too, are made up But what’s the truth, do you have proof of what you’re afraid of

Uh, everyone think it so right when they just start We let our train of thought get derailed by a game of hearts So we play are cards and we like to thank our stars Once a club for love but the diamonds faded it’s time to say au revoir Try to decipher the spiral that you followed down Pin point the actions that attacked and figure out who allowed them out It’s just the masks that were attached that let them hide behind a smile You’re faced with problems so you weigh your options, check mate, what’s your next move now Hey I finally did it, tied a noose around the frame Placed a picture of you in it so that I can see you hang Placed it above my bed so it's the last thing that I see Right before I sleep and when I dream you're hanging in front of me Dangling so wonderfully for everyone to see The pretty little monster that I kept to keep fun for me She was living hungrily, like magic suddenly I appeared and apparently she wanted me Scared she glared to see who cared so carefully Who wants to sail the air with me, her wings were fluttering Trapped in eyelashes, she was so bashful Actin like too cute ain’t the brand new fashion The way that she was wearing it, she wore that shit good Seduction she was carrying, she carried like she should Not too much baggage and this package tightly wrapped It was less than average time for this cat to be ravaged You can take the picture And you can see the skin The real creature behind the film Is what they want to keep within Hey I finally did it, tied a noose around the frame Placed a picture of you in it, so that I can see you hang Drew a tiny little x on the outside of your heart Grabbed a scalpel, fuck, a pick axe ripped that shit apart Once I got passed the cage, just an empty cave inside And a little hand written note, it said, what did you expect to find? Was it dead? Was it alive? Will its memory survive? Will it spread anymore lies? Let’s give it credit. It’s denied Read the directions, still we fed it after midnight Let it feed off of everything we were in this life Shed it, shrugged it, shredded pieces that keep us tied Get up, we give up secrets at least we say we tried Used to dream about you now I dread closing my eyes Never know where it will travel, chose to leave it all behind Still need to see those pictures hanging swinging side by side Can’t decide which I recognize, need to know the reason why? You can take the picture And you can see the skin The real creature behind the film Is what they want to keep within Which one is outta focus? How did it become a wreck? Gave up the wheel when I thought it felt real Who photo-shopped the film with disrespect Oh god I loved that smile I got too used to that stare Those precious lips need an exorcist No entrance it’s a sign to beware Lock the gate, grab the caution tape I think I found what face holds strong My eyes were tricked, a conscience picked Apart to confuse what I knew was wrong (click, click, a mental pic - my nerves now feel what you thought had slipped) You can take the picture And you can see the skin The real creature behind the film Is what they want to keep within

Somebody know where my knife's at I need it so i get my life back there's a few bitches that I can push it into who can tell me where the fuck my wife's at last I seen she was standing right by zack, now i might snap i cracked another bottle just for a little more memory losing medicine in a night cap ain't no way they'll be able fight back caught 'em while their creator was takin a slight nap no one to watch over this nowhere near sober maniac holdin 'em in the moonlights path lights flash, knife slashes passionately through the accurate and precise gash and actually this is the happiest moment of my life so i might laugh

Dance for me, dance for me What surprise do you have in your hands for me? I want them to touch, I want them to pinch I want them to disappear somewhere in your lips Move, move, so smooth, smooth To the beat cause you know it's what you should do Just where to place it and just how fast When to take it on up and when to slide right back Take it gently, demented medley Of this in there and that in here and feeling so friendly Keeping a smile like our flesh is empty But our skin is involved in a caressing frenzy You know not of me but chose to meet me in the dark Tender to the teeth yet the meat is so hard Where else would you be if not the sheets of a star Out on your knees looking for me in a god Do you like being tied up, do I make you feel unsafe? Should I say what makes you sick but puts a smile on your face? Do you like being strapped down? Do you like calm or violent? Fuck you till you must tap out? Just want to keep us smiling… Sugar, sugar would ya put your butt right here Push up right there, careful, nut might smear Why’s my pillow wet, Is ya your drink spillin out? You let that shit roll off your back and I’ma fill your mouth I’m playin’, c’mon gimme a smile and kiss After I found them lips wrapped around all this Two miles o’ dick, byproduct of a pile of shit Can hit the fan, still won’t call it quits Wives, girlfriends, singles nothing’s out my grip Sorry boys, you shoulda kept ya paws on it So I dabble, no blabbin, she got no gaggin reflex Gobble the dragon, there’s screamin there’s laughin, how do you like sex? Ingest my best shot in the slot, jackpot, cherries popped Do you want my dead babies on your chest? Or would you like em on your lips, would you like it in the hole Turn her fuckin belly button into a swimming pool… Come and see the freak on display The monster’s been unleashed from his cage Come and see the freak on display I thought I told you to stay away I could be cruel and just dip a little bit Hit the tip on the lips, then oops it slips Slowly passed the clitoris, is it a fit or this, shaking means that I got a hit on miss, “No one can get me going by a flick-a-da-wrist” Now it’s time to dive into this, Are you with me bitch? Make those toes touch those posts My to-do list says I’m s'posed to be stickin ribs I ain’t in far enough if your throat don’t feel like there’s dick in it Shit, are you gettin it? I got you drippin wet, Disgustin skin in our slippy sweat You’re too addicted to my wigglin Up and down, side-to-side, around the thighs and then I’m in again Lips and fingers skip from your tits to chin Then back down to find a warm place to be diggin in Front or back door, I got the keys to be getting in Unlocked it to find the little secrets that you hid in it Push up, push back, do you like to get slapped? Slide down, slide that all over this thick cock Do it hard, do it soft, anything to get me off? this motherfuckers killing me, I wanna watch that monkey drop Lick and nibble, stick a little throat around my man Spit and dribble gets the middle slippin through ya hand You know the drill and the attack, well, here it comes Swallow the meal, chew it back, lemme see it on your tongue Do you like being tied up, do I make you feel unsafe? Should I say what makes you sick but puts a smile on your face? Do you like being strapped down? Do you like calm or violent? Fuck you till you must tap out? Just want to keep us smiling…

I told you to stay away… I had a different script writ, but I ended that scene I used to dream that you and me would see our future on screen The most amazing thing that this world would have ever seen A perfect portrait that I would’ve tatted all over me Too many photographic memories that have become debris I started catching onto fragments that weren’t fitting between A story that started with A and it ended with B After I edited the film, there was an ending to me A Su Dem, the directors cut was too deep There was a part of me that wouldn’t stop seeing you as some meat So I beat you down till I thought you soft enough I can eat Then I gobbled you up and used your sweet lil heart as a treat So succulent and petite, need you in and IV Drink up every drop of juice you could possibly secrete Its no secret who I am but you wore shades at night And in the daylight you chose to be and stay as blind I ain’t got regrets, I ain’t, I ain’t feeling bad Always room for change in weather when the season’s passed A new supporting actress came and I rewrote the scene I had You asked me, “don’t you believe in us?”, I said “yeah, I believe in that As individuals we all have the role to pave the way And seize control and find the soul that nature gave And push and pull till you find the hole where you should lay” Sorry if you’re hurt, I told you to stay away.

You go in laughin’, face first to approach hope You know “what happened”, you know how your boats floats Don’t close those chapters can’t have mistakes repeat Learn from previous actors and create your perfect scene last script I read, the print was far outta focus misread what it said, was too late when I noticed They tell me that it happens for a purpose, well let’s suppose this Is true and my bonus is, for you, I wrote this let’s dump the shit, I’m done with it Picked up what I threw down and I’ll run with it To learn a few more lessons that would come with it Try and try again til I find that somethin fit Moral of the story, comedy and dramas unite You can laugh at my down time but still I have sight Of the light that ain’t quite changed any second it might Or maybe it won’t and I’ll waste another year of my life Trying to escape the past but evade the fast lane Stayed in back but I never backed away Kept my head in the crowd and a crown that I saved Veered away from the clouds stood the grounds that I’ve paved And I’ll take my chances, I’ll make this right I’ll seek the answers, sing in the keys of life No need for passages and scriptures, you know what I’ll be? What’s that? I’ll be the best me Who purchased planned outlines for my path I wanna give ‘em a standing ovation while I clap Get the whole damn theatre involved to cry, laugh Love and hate it and wonder why someone would write that suppose to, someone said, “we chose you” We’ll feed you, we’ll clothe you, here’s a disease that shows you Were strong from the start, the road is long and it’s hard You’ll feel wrong in your heart yet still use song as your art And As long as you're smart and take what life throws you Just so you know you won’t stop till you feel everyone knows you Dream, dream, oh god a day mare, its day light I stay scared that they might purposely miss my Scene, am I seen? Can I play there with fair fight and be strong and be noticed And not fear to denote this It’s nice to dream, dream but dreams are just hopeless As long as I am the only one who spoke this, I wrote this Trying to escape the past and evade the fast lane Stayed in the back but I never backed away Kept my head in the crowd and a crown that I saved Veered away from the clouds stood the grounds that I’ve paved And I’ll take my chances and I’ll make this right I’ll seek the answers, sing in the keys of life No need for passages and scriptures, you know what I’ll be? What’s that? I’ll be the best me We’ve all been through fire, our hearts have all been cold We all want a buyer, but we all want our soul We need lovers and friends though anger is a major role We know how every story ends, though every stories untold We all have potential, that special us inside No matter how crowded the trees get your paths still open wide We’re shootin for the stars and we’re reaching for the skies We’re all born on this earth and that’s why we learned to fly ‘cause we are free, free to do what our minds decide Mold who we want to be, if you fail, get up and try And try again, who we are we need to find What’s under our skin, seek out the you that’s trying to hide ‘cause this is a game we’re playing the game of life We take the ride, along the way may find some kids, money or wife Some get bored of this board that contains the roads we’ll drive We’ll all lose some pieces and may never find our paradise We don’t know the right roads or roll of that pair of dice See ones so many times, snake eyes once then they are twice The odds against you, follow suit or is all of you In for the big win cause you already knew tomorrows new Never escape the past but can evade the fast lane Enjoy the stroll the view can take your breath away Love what you’ve been given even when driven insane Keep your eyes on the prize cause we’re all given the reigns So take your chances and make this right Not always answers cause that would take the fun outta life Put all you have on the line, 'cause you know what to do Don’t ask, just be the best you I march to the beat of the muscle in my chest

Steadily pressin’ the right panic button, damn it’s something When you’re left with the signs of dying hands of time we’re fuckin’ Nothing compares to jumpin this ledge to end the legend started When you reach the bottom remember the reason that you hardened Your rough skin, once again, these same concrete blocks Get so heavy to hold yet I constantly stomp If my soul end up missin then I’d probably stop til then just check how awkwardly I walk Kick my print into the surface what’s the purpose, I’ll learn guess just to make a dent for the hunger I yearn Hold it together in the middle watchin both ends burn While the muscles in my throat get gradually un-firm But the game is far from over only took one turn Move ahead one space, from doorstep to curb further I get away, I guess the less you’ll worry About what I’ll be speaking about but then again haven’t you heard Sound travels, unravels, even in the back Of your thoughts, when you don’t hear it, still there to attack Sink it’s monstrous teeth into an obnoxious weakling the toxic speaking became a shocking smack Doped up, let these sparks sink into your veins Let your burnt heart get scarred from the flames Let it leave a memory carved in your blank page Let it be the remedy, start jotting down the names Overdost, Joshua, Malisse with the reigns Happy family portrait all mushed in the frame Never asked anyone to be pushed in the way But I gotta speak my peace or life wouldn’t be the same I’ve taken scars, I’ve taken wounds I’ve played my cards, I’ve paid my dues So I stand at the bottom to stare at the top Have a Long way to go but I cannot be stopped May continue to fall, I’ll rise again strong just gotta keep moving along, keep moving on Who thinks they have the strength to break the walls that I’ve built Or even find the slightest crack to slip into while I’m still come on in and ride the spine that’s giving this entire thrill That’s al natural and not held by dollar bills Be amazed by the maze, labyrinth walls that I’ve raised Strategically placed just to block some thoughts that I’ve faced no way in hell that they can be replaced or erased This faith just made me unafraid of any taunt you can wave Nothing could make me back off of this stage If I develop the thought, it falls out on the page can’t allow a higher power to tell me how or what to say Everything that lives inside the cave is placed out on a display I’m draining my own pocket to see a dream I need saved No fuckin way that anyone could block the path that I’ve paved Can you take the inside being outside of this cage Dynamic duo, you know ego and me do this not just for fame Technology in music’s better but the ethics are worse don’t speak English anymore just gibberish through a verse I can sit and shit out the same repeated words But I’d rather work and show these jerks I deserve what I’m worth So I stand at the bottom to stare at the top Have a Long way to go but I cannot be stopped May continue to fall, but I’ll get up and crawl just gotta keep moving along, keep moving on This is theatre, this is art, it ain’t money, it’s a start Could be an end, and a best friend touching each and every heart This is speaking ink, bleeding, troubled people feeding an addiction I love fiending for, its my light, its my dark Its my spark; its why I wake up everyday to play my part And pay my dues and make my mark, I gotsta leave my stain My bite’s hard as my bark, do you believe in what I’m sayin? I told you to examine these sharp teeth on this shark I’ll tear away what’s out just to tickle what’s in Pick you apart from within get you to start and dig in Your own guts to see what you can pull up from that garbage bin Same words and lines that have been snorted up on a binge Keep your man-made franchise, gang-banged, what’s real About runnin the same train on the fame game, to get a deal to be held on puppet strings to do a dance Dollar signs and cloaked assholes give a chance to get advanced trash all your bullshit notebook scraps Jot down every “genius” thought that you shoulda moved passed made a mental collage of clichéd shit I see it feels so goddamn great to know that’ll never be me I faced it, the music that is, liked it, embraced it I taste it, my freedom that is, we are a safe fit I traced it, the picture that is, added my own hues I made it look the way that I have always wanted it to The character I designed, he has some real thick skin A brick wall of flesh, difficult to get in But I open a big wide door when a creature needs to creep on out Never kill the messenger, he’s letting ya know what I think about I’m slightly seasoned now; my spit still tastes oh so sweet It produces different from yours, makes me more than just meat So I don’t need a hook to keep me hanging around to get eat Bitch, come swallow my seed and let a little rotten piece of me sleep At the pit of your belly, I‘m melting and I can’t believe I got passed the teeth take me whole and make me yours, lay you down and let me creep On down the trap, you tried so hard to block the freak, can’t stop the leak I’m still knocking, tap, tap on the chamber doors, it’s not ya dream But a nightmare that you can’t run from, give in please Look at me like a savior, worship me, get on your knees I won’t answer prayers; I’ll fulfill all your needs take a number, have a seat, wait your turn, feed on these treats So I stand at the bottom to stare at the top Have a Long way to go but I cannot be stopped May continue to fall, I’ll rise again strong just gotta keep moving along, keep moving on So I stand at the bottom to stare at the top Have a Long way to go but I cannot be stopped May continue to fall, but I’ll get up and crawl just gotta keep moving along, keep moving on

I’ve wasted so much time and I don't even know why it's just a part of life That I must leave behind i really gotta go and get my shit together every time i got it figured out I’m wrong when you think you got your life planned out forever then the violin plays a different song first it hits a bad note then throws ya back there goes the snap, photograph caught you on a false start cause you weren't in the game and your heads to blame down in a hole chained and you're feeling like doll parts you're lying down, so your eyes are shut you wanna shout but can't see if there's something there to scream at try to find that happy place that's behind your face you visited once but didn't know if you would be back you lost track cause you didn't remember your path you thought that prints could never resemble the past you fought back but failed to mend together the cracks your problems seeped through the surface and were embedded in ash you burned the bridges that you thought you never needed attached when they returned with seething teeth you knew to feed the attack you baited them too many years and when it came to react they caught you sleeping and left a defeated carcass to drag I’ve wasted so much time and I don't even know why it's just a part of life That I must leave behind So now I stand at this hill, I should be looking down from the top this Ball of shit still moves quickly, haven’t figured out how to stop this Weight from pushing on me while every spectator watches With their eyes opened too wide and a shit eating grin that makes me nauseous But I guess I can’t bitch too much about this cause I bought it And allowed it to pile up too high, I’m so sorry I lost it My grip that is, on all of this, I just must have thought it Would fix itself but it’s not and I’ve discovered some faucets That seem to be pouring out a number of problems On top of the many that are already slammin down on us I’m tryna be honest, I know that nothing is flawless So we keep shinin this up waitin till the diamond is polished Anticipatin waitin for the ending to call us Standing patiently at the bottom for the empire to fall it’s a matter of time till this mountain is climbed and it’s all left behind Sunshine Is what guides us, never will we end up lost or follow blinded Whether i have gold or coal, if my hearts warm or cold If I’m bought or I’m sold, If I play my hand or I fold If I’m pushed or I am pulled, I will be pushed, I will be pulled And I will push-push-push cause it’s all that I know I finally opened a brand new scene Gotta a brand new screen, a brand new script, feel like a brand new me I’ve wasted so much time and I don't even know why it's just a part of life That I must leave behind Nothing is pointless It paves the way to find the place where you can finally enjoy this When you can’t take it and you’re far beyond annoyed with What you’ve made, face it maybe its not the game that you should toy with Keep focus, noticed something slowing you, avoid it You’re the only one who can create this or destroy it The keys are in your grasp, you can keep driving or crash After you’re through the glass, the path becomes darker to nav And goddamn have I ran low and almost outta gas Damn right I have, I strapped them boots and fucking trucked it through ash Of burned bridges, torn open stitches, here’s to my past I have spent some time in ditches not enough to kill my laugh When I was being scarred I wasn’t scared to keep my smirk When I was told that I was worthless I still kept at work When I was ridiculed for my surface I brushed away that dirt To prove them that I have a purpose and their words would never hurt There’s a dream that I have, I must fulfill but how every corner I turn around has all it’s doors covered by shrouds it doesn’t slow me down because I’m finally proud I just want to know I have it all together now I just want to know that I have it, that I have it all together now, now I just wanna know I have it all together now I just wanna know I have it all together now I’ve made it and now I’m Proud of how I’ve built my life These bricks are stacked so high I can never stop my climb

You wake today another day, the sun is shining, shine away you feel it’s warmth upon your face, today is good, today is great… What ain’t there to smile about Yeah you ain’t got everything and struggle man but how about When you get home from work, gotta job gotta house You have what you need, hey is that food that’s in your mouth Every day you celebrate for the fact you got to wake Another chance to scrape the slate of how the dirt was made always time to turn the tables ‘fore you go and turn the page thirst for more, works the reigns, hurt and sore, search what you never thought you would ever amount to, dollar amounts that you could never count to Never see things that you feel you’re about to do whatever your heart will allow you Let em know what no one knows about you, let em think how they could now ever doubt you You own the power to spit ‘em a mouthful and the knowledge to force it all down slow squeeze the trigger, you feel a bit bigger, you figured out what makes your heart beat You’re smart, feed your thoughts treats, sweets, tarts, retards eat It up and they love it, speak in code, secret flow Keep it low so they only know what they think they know

Thankful for my parents and choosing to have another kid Thankful for that meningitis not taking the life that I would live Thankful for falling off that couch and getting that screw in my head Thankful for flying off the swing and hittin like eighteen steps And for them yellow jackets attackin me makin me think I would be dead Thankful for my sister dawn for being there when i needed it Thankful for that shitty Lime Street thankful for that dead end Thankful for those big wheels and the snakes we rode over on them Thankful for my father for always deciding to empty another can cocking back his goddamn hand forcing it in mama again Thankful for my uncle Gary and giving us that space to live in Thankful for McKees Rocks being the fucked up place that I would land The “freaks”, we stuck together, when no other friends would lend a hand Thankful for Jesse, George and Eddie wanting to start a band Thankful for the downward spiral, made me comfortable where i stand Thankful for that divorce, afraid I wouldn’t be who I am They tell me that it happens for a purpose, well let’s suppose this Is true, my bonus is, for you, I wrote this Thankful that Kasandra came knocking when she did Thankful that I had to grow up so much faster than my friends Thankful that me and her mother just didn’t work out in the end Thankful that she stopped trying to beat every girl I met Thankful that I didn’t smoke weed til I graduated Thankful that Sheena's parents were hooked up on that shit Thankful that I came in contact with a coke habit Thankful that I never became a damn alcoholic Thankful that those golden mushrooms made me have to go vomit thankful that it opened my mind, thankful that I could take it all in Thankful for ex and K and every pill I went and sniffed Thankful for the fact I never rode the horse, heroin I’m thankful for Mel, Nicole, Randi and Jocelyn Valene, 3 Caitlins, Beth, Jessica, all of them Jami Jo, you know, even every close call I was almost in Thankful that Sheena, Sara and Kristin will be with me till I'm dead They tell me that it happens for a purpose, well let’s suppose this Is true, my bonus is, for you, I wrote this I’m so goddamn thankful I never lost my Meglyn never lost Jorge Simon, I may be lost without them Thankful for god never crawling inside of my precious head Thankful for knowing right from wrong without ever needing him Thankful for my tats, t-shirts, lyrics and who they may offend Thankful for having my own thoughts and not following a trend Thankful for all who stood by my side through thick and thin And I thank those who said I’d never accomplish a fucking thing Thankful my monster is my son and my dude and my heart Thankful that my daughter will also always be a part Thankful that there will be an end to every chapter that I start It leaves room for something fresh and new to toss in the cart Thankful for bad decisions, thankful for good as well Thankful for no heaven so I can never go to hell Thankful for the listener and listening to what I’m about Thankful for the path I’ve walked I wouldn’t be who I am now