Yeah, it’s a celebration Yeah, I’d like to thank you all for being so patient Yeah, I was stuck in surgery feeling so aimless Yeah, finally stuck the scalpel in far enough to taste it I wish I could tell you where the old me went and hid I sent that fuckin kid to hell then up to 10 He needed some vivaciousness injected in his skin It elevated him, let’s celebrate the win I saw the light, no I’m not gracious Had to reimagine me as not another faceless Encourage myself to forget about the faithless Pulling me together was my number one basis I dug into my gut to find what made this Being that I once was tick, tick, ape shit I went off the rocker for a bit hit basement Won’t feel better till I sit with pavement Had to fix a plate and then I ate it Lining up my cutlery, it’s all in product placement It’s fuckin hurtful as you watch it fadin My thinking’s more precise, believe me I’ve awaken For a minute there, I was ill prepared I misplaced a part of me and I didn’t care Till reality was just sittin here I don’t like this place, thinking like shit I’m scared Yeah, I can feel the earth shakin Yeah, I feel like I am blessed by the mother fuckin ancients Yeah, nobody but me can paint it in this nature Yeah, lemma hear a round of applause for your goddamn savior I wish I could tell you where the old me went and hid I sent that fuckin kid to hell then up to 10 He needed some vivaciousness injected in his skin It elevated him, let’s celebrate the win Life is good, not really, it’s fuckin great You’ll always meet the pessimist that bring up some debate On why you got to follow rules, well, I’m the snake Sink your fuckin fangs into the apple cause you’ll love the taste Of changing up the pace, tangle up the lace Trippin at the ankle while you dangle in disgrace When you find out you’re a copy of a copy Mr. Reznor nailed it, your printed page is just a blank I simply like to take the backroad Leaves room to be an asshole, never have to step that low Got some wiggle room to let my act grow Only place I’m injured is the strength of my cash flow I must accept it, being independent Just impressed that I found my way back to pen this Skilled at my craft, should have an apprentice Carry on my legacy when the death of me ends this Yeah, it’s a celebration Yeah, I’d like to thank you all for being so patient Yeah, I was stuck in surgery feeling aimless Yeah, finally stuck the scalpel in far enough to taste it I wish I could tell you where the old me went and hid I sent that fuckin kid to hell then up to 10 He needed some vivaciousness injected in his skin It elevated him, let’s celebrate the win

We don’t have too much time but I take so much time to do all We always stand in line then we lose our place every time we fall I need a new direction this one’s not acceptin me anymore I’m so sick of correction, please be the step I’m ready for I have my ticket, fuck, I’m lost in the thicket Was this shit regifted, it feels like it was Sippin from the spicket on the outside lookin in it I’ve always been too chicken even though it seemed like fun C’mon and take the ride, little baby won’t you swim Hold your brittle head high, dip your little piggies in The waters just fine, I’ll let you wade a bit Till your fears subside, your pathetic, bathe in it That’s when I knew that I would drown if I didn’t learn to fight Splashin all around, I had to earn the right Pulled my head up from the ground just to feel it burn in light Then I came to join the crowd, but I returned in spite I won’t be a part, so I refused to start Thought I was a shiny star, then I got confused with art Not knowing what was real pierced me right through the heart I was granted VIP in your abusement park We don’t have too much time but I take so much time to do all We always stand in line then we lose our place every time we fall I need a new direction this one’s not acceptin me anymore I’m so sick of correction, please be the step I’m ready for I laced up my boots, thought I’d put them to use Worn out the soul I’d lose, unclear if I’d get it back I faced the truth then confessed it in a booth Did the best that I could do but there’s something that I lack I step up to the plate but my best hit’s just a bunt I stagger to the base and know it’s not what I want Feel like an average joe you never see me up in front Why the hell can’t I make the hit that will take me from this slump Never called, no requests, why can’t I swim in streams? Losin money, can’t invest myself in all these hidden schemes Happiness cannot exist when all your bets are in your dreams Keep your standards simple, life ain’t the shit it seems I’m not angry, just saying it takes more than a skill To stay hard, more than a pill, play cards, more than a deal Face odds and even the score and sure, go for the kill Be prepared when road slows, I’m sure it will

I’m positive, it’s impossible to not watch my wattage flow The opposite of droppin slow knowledge off the top and so Lock and load, click, click, Faustian office pro I offered up chopping blocks to the pretards to stop their role Talk is sold, walk the road of stones and bricks and rock & roll Phone those pricks, I’m the off show, I’m not unknown, a crop circle Dusting off the musty cloth, I must be off my cough and cold Just the soft and fuzzy thoughts have shoved me, fuck I lost control Pissin pot has froth and full, let’s call this bowl the pot of gold Oughtta fold, prodigal wordsmith with a lot to hold Verses delivered by hearses, curse this person that’s responsible Write like I might be on the snow; brain is racin obstacles Turbulence is stirrin the current, sense my genes across the pool Furtherin’ me, yer the current tense cause you lost optical Shot the sheriff, popped the priest, stopped the thief that got my soul Needed it back to sell myself short-handed to that profit ghoul Started to think I lost a goal Goddamn it I’m hungry again, I was close to being improbable You will never watch me topple o- Versions of a certain me, I certainly am talkable You better keep watchin’ For when the shade changes shape (You don’t know what I may become) I was a birth defect not worth the term reject The nurses were neglectful, burned the serpents hex Into his perfect chest then served as pets, up next the pervert’s best circus net Failed to catch him, they’re all laughin, you've fuckin heard the rest This is a service test, words infest the circuits best When you’re open to the verdicts mess, potent but I still serve no less Clothin is optional, only covers who you were, confess True colors, lose what has you smothered in yer success Enthusiasm can be curbed, I stir the fresh Scent of resentment, sorry for fermented worthlessness It circumvents full circle this is worser when it is purposeless I live and breathe and burp this mess so no choice but to work this breath Now the stage still seems built a bit fragile Nowadays the Kings killed in his castle The creep will come sneaking to slit throats while he's sleeping In his sheets he's believing that his rule has safe keeping You better keep watchin’ For when the shade changes shape (You don’t know what I may become)

The pen and the pad became a keyboard and a screen Wanna get more than you have then you need more than a dream The person that you knew, just a pixelated theme A choose your journey tale, never know where the trail is gonna lead The king is gonna hail and you may never fit his scheme Scared of what prevails, stare at a never finished scream Your lungs will still exhale, it’s the inhale that’ll quit and feed Your heart its jump start so it never skips a beat You wake up one day to find that everything has changed You placed it on external drives, can’t see that anything has saved One day today is grey, just a dream, relive them days Lemme see what I can paint for you before I’m on my way Hey, hey, where’d you go? Flee the scene when something’s wrong You tried you’re best, you gave you’re all Never give up on the artist that you’ve grown to know I want you to gimme the combination to your safe The greatest complication is right in front of your face Congratulate yourself for makin it this late in the race State your names, don’t matter, I’m here to take the place As the outcast that will outlast passed skill, feelin me? Want inside? Keep drilling me, fuckin killin me Small step for man, getting tinier as I’m building me Into my own army marching just for the thrill to see How much further I’ll go Keeping pushing on and on until I worsen the blow More strange and deranged things keep hurtin my show It’s a sacrificial wound, there’s more to learn and to know Not just another mother fucker makin sounds I’m in this as a lover, undercover sprayin rounds Believe me that I'm trouble, even when layin down Goddamn right that this is battle, saddle up and take your grounds We see the wild styles of the rich and famous How ‘bout the loud mouths of the gifted nameless Never found out what’s in these bits of pages Of pavement we keep hittin cause this shit is ageless A script of how we're livin and its been contagious There were moments we were spinning through fits and rages We're doin it right if we're raisin fists of strangers Every line I write is just another list of dangers I was gonna come at this with storytelling But I thought, I gotta hit it good with something more compelling Revel around in your level, I’m down for selling My soul whole, I’m bound by my tortured belly And the creature that pits against this corporate dwelling I tried to keep quiet but you always force the yelling So here I am pulling on that shortest straw Yet continuously proving that I’m more than raw I stand against the giants with my own theories and science See no need for compliance, simply feed its defiance Silence, silence? You'll never get my silence There's about to be a massacre, sound off all the sirens I’m in to win it, a minute to get it, infinite critics are sniffin around Listening in on the cynical gibberish slippin the shit in and fistin their mouths Getting the littlest hint of the bitterness, flinchin with jitters then kissin it out Fixin your ears with this sweet love and tenderness, stickin your ear drums with similar sounds Finish it sick of this simple shit that you’ve allowed Can't catch the facts unless I relax and slow it down This is my breaking point it's taken me beyond annoyance Safe to say I'm here in hopes that I just may destroy this Hey, hey, where’d you go? Flee the scene when something’s wrong You tried you’re best, you gave you’re all Never give up on the artist that you’ve grown to know Started the pilots heart, it's departed to my wildest schemes Maybe I'll learn of the artistic words of my childish dreams Baby I heard this far distant version of my loudest screams May be observed as narcissistic, that’s just how it seems I used to give myself such high expectations Now I can’t find the time to even bind with my patienc Exercise the mind and really try to shape this Fetch some Technicolor to spice the life up of this blankness It’s for the story teller, it’s for the poet Do it for the glory of showin me split open I do it for the mourning and to show you how we’re broken Do it for the four in the morning sleepless nights of hopin That there’s peace more than there’s war, the love that we have woken I do it to be immortal through the words that must be spoken Though it’s not for the lord yet in my soul I know I’m chosen I do it to release the stress of these pages that I wrote in I do this cause I’m sure I’m one the best there’s ever been I do it cause I won’t settle being told I’ll never win I do this cause I know that I’m worth remembering Forever in your thoughts after my final breath gives in I do this for the comfort of where I’ve settled in I do this for the angels that play in my devil’s den I do it cause I’m certain I can never let it end I do it so there’s no giving up and there’s no way I’m giving in Hey, hey, where’d you go? Flee the scene when something’s wrong You tried you’re best, you gave you’re all Never give up on the artist that you’ve grown to know

I don’t know when I and logic decided on takin the wrong turn Makin my way to the cellar and clean up the smell of the dead where these songs were A sickening fragrance of complacence, statements made up of strong words Attic is in the basement there’s barely clarity, you’re all blurred I'm over the shit and stereotypes of how to spit I'll never be a rapper but I can't tell myself to quit Cause thoughts swarm, these plots form on the screen like soft core Believe there’s a lot more to watch for before full blown shock porn Even though I swear I was already in the correct direction There must be disrespectful condescendin inflection in the lesson I'm bettin that it's 90% of rappers of my complexion Can't spit a verse worth a bit of shit to catch attention One outta ten retards that grab the mic don't have the right To step in a booth ain't got the facts of life, you ain't got the matches or the fuckin gas to light The dimmest flickering fading flame cause you ain't half as bright, won’t catch and bite Sit back and write the mediocrity that you like, I snatch the mic, I’m black and white

I'm the first chopper that will be coming outta Pittsburgh Chipped and I'm slippy but please don't ever call me yinzer While I'm sippin a sixer and spittin a blizzard And flipping the bizird, never wanna hear you ever call the wizard Even though I know you know you're not in Kansas anymore Standing like a broad, ruby reds are demanding you man up And take it on camera, your make up just ran On my snake and did damage, I thought I could manage clamage like I’m doin porn You famished? Need some beef to eat before you vanish? Trouble in your vantage, camping under a tent that someone planted Dammit I just nailed it, hammered on the head, the shape is bent I can and will let you redeem the brand ya stand by No one in my city could say it so pretty, is he dizzy from staying so busy And steadily spreading this napalm, plays calm when the demon's unleashed in me Hey mom, never thought I could twist ‘em up and make ‘em living Added some energy, Frankenstein when I’m in a beat Every other enemy is just somebody with a mic Breathing too heavily and I’m speaking so steadily You can have your heaven me and Satan are lovin on this life Fast talker, yup chopper I might offer the part of me that's half monster Though all of me is a beast, follow me and believe Other emcees are deceased, OD’s a king, can’t stop him When everything you hear is just the same song That’s why we stay strong and we play calm with Napalm I got it, oxymoronic fire flow so cold Legend born of a jackals bone then grown Started palpitation, heart beginning preparation, presentin’ hesitation Proportion blown too long Joshua’s horn had torn the walls of boredom Inseminate you whores, shortly after I’ve lured them Have you read the foreword, d’ya meet the greeting recorded? I’m a machine and my battery is never gonna drain before I Tell a story about me running my mouth Becoming a god, or Satan cause I’m underground Living breathing monster, the unfound Martian Autopsy showin a beast, approach me with caution Beyond capable, relatable, Ego inflatable, create a full version, Fuck, not playable Hate-able? Debatable, Never take a hold of my full potential energy that you can’t deny is sustainable Had a second to breathe Bleeding irritation has been getting to me Feed into temptation, spreadin my seed Believe me when I’m sayin that I’m letting it be But the demon has been waiting for me to be setting it free I keep it in a box that has been dented in These things I keep on shaking are no longer making me calm When I think of speaking I create the sound of detonating a bomb When everything you hear is just the same song That’s why we stay strong and we play calm with Napalm Can you feel the heat I’m emanating from the weapon Of mass deconstruction, of mass deconstruction When everything you hear is just the same song That’s why we stay strong and we play calm with Napalm

It’s been a journey, the rides given thrills There’ve been times where I was missin wheels No emotion, no motions, the river’s still Kept floatin’, still copin’, there’s a way if given will I scampered, I tampered with evidence Guess I tried changing the truth, in a sense I haven’t done anything stupid in a minute since The last time that I had to ask for forgiveness I’ve lived so many years doing such dumb shit Became associated with what you should not fuck with Took a toll on who I was, though I had my fun Memories forget but karma doesn’t It’s the fact that I made it here to all of you And it’s amazing that you could hear the call to you You’ve responded to all of it, this is the positive That I was told that I would find if I’d follow through Every day I feel it getting better Even when we feel it’s hard to love There’s a tie that’s binding us together It’s knotted so there’s no stoppin us Any time we feel it might be crashing You know we’ll be hoppin off that bus Hitch a ride, going down a different path And find a new place, we’re enough Created 2, given 5 Surrounded by these people, is me livin life All I used to do, just isn’t right Now I see why all of that was criticized You need someone to back you, I have that Not to try and change you when you’re abstract See through the differences and get passed that So I can love every moment they get to sit on dad’s lap We got a full house, I’ve played my cards right Lost a bunch of hands but I’ve always had far sight When the chips were runnin low I’d look to starlight Make my wish and focus then I’d start my Ascension to the place that I found You cannot find yourself till it comes around Me, a poetic father, I love all of my kids With my queen right here, leading this CrawOtey crowd Every day I feel it getting better Even when we feel it’s hard to love There’s a tie that’s binding us together It’s knotted so there’s no stoppin us Any time we feel it might be crashing You know we’ll be hoppin off that bus Hitch a ride, going down a different path And find a new place, we’re enough I guess you gotta learn that even when it’s perfect, it’s just not simple You really gotta listen, you gotta pay attention, only way you’ll get through Unconditional, heart positioning, open up the cage and let them play Love ‘em like it’s the last time you’ll ever see their face, everyday I’m grateful, I am actually very grateful The missing puzzle pieces now fit and I’m thankful Everybody gets angry, everybody seems crazy But nowadays see my emotions move graceful A beautiful ballet dancing ‘round the dinner table Tiny little people make that face that seems painful Insane teenagers sayin shit that be shameful When I was their age I didn’t think of it as playful Can’t help but love it, as nutty as it makes me And you can’t predict direction, when it’s shaky Had to get to the point where I was breaking Apart and see a new way to piece it and create me 3 daughters, 2 sons roughly blended May take time to see us all mended But this is my letter to you all, that I’m sendin Forever filled with love that’s never endin’ Every day I feel it getting better Even when we feel it’s hard to love There’s a tie that’s binding us together It’s knotted so there’s no stoppin us Any time we feel it might be crashing You know we’ll be hoppin off that bus Hitch a ride, going down a different path And find a new place, we’re enough

I just wanna wake up and not wonder if the gift I was given is soon to be wasted If I’m gonna get up out of these trenches and stop working my bones, I need ta view some new places The scenery is tired, the color has dulled, the film has now aged and the credits are slow The director yells cut, the producer was pulled, the station was changed, I resemble that show I had my unique twist on the ubiquitous loosely fictitious list that guided a craft Then to my surprise, the two wings collectively decided to split so it divided my staff One side dreams, one side reality, once in a happy marriage, divorced under bad terms Headlights bright with one direction in sight, yet stuck in reverse I still wander backwards I wanted it, that career in music Came a time when I feared I lose it Greatest thing in life, captain steer that cruise ship One-way ticket, I can’t bare the movement It’s made me sick, my stomach turned I am a fuckin lesson that wasn’t learned I watch these fuckers, I’m stressin, too much concern On How much more degradation that we must discern The picture I’m paintin in writing is blatant Whatever I’m makin, jus buy it and frame it There is no replacement, I am only me Welcome to the show, my life on for a fee Please stick around when the credits have rolled When I dried up my tryin, deposit my soul In these pieces of meaningful thoughts that unfold Never get caught up and sold Recently I was given advice Tryna reach a wider audience with similar minds I’ma preach the type of honesty that gets ‘em entwined I am speakin like it’s college for the illest in lines Professor Overdost, got my doctorate You feeble students wrote ya notes or is the plot too thick? Google the rope-a-dope, I cannot stop the shit The nest is cuckoo so I go from off the top with it I’m a legend recently outta hidin Was under that rock n roll, but I’ve been spyin Can’t keep it simple no matter how hard I keep tryin Once I start I keep climbin up to the stars to be shinin It’s been too long, it’s been too long I know that I deserve it all, I never did you wrong I built up my precious heart and I calloused it Too make it fuckin hard enough so there’s no crackin it Now it's automatic retaliated talent He can’t give it up, he has a sick habit He’s been standing in the corner now he’s savage He knew this was always the way that he would have it No prep for when he’s back at it again A lyrical masterpiece, rap addict in him Influences moving fluently, laugh at the kids That know his technique surpasses all them A craft and style his own Home brewed audiophile, gotta devour this zone Mother fuckers in twilight, spaced out on their phones No reality, sad to see how this will go His story is definitely history in the makin This glorified agnostic gore lover takin The appropriate steps to reach his destination Life’s a beach, he’s better in a dim lit basement No dimwit, they said, the kid’s sick take him To the clinic, change him, click click click, bang then Steal that fuckin security blanket That he stores in his warrior built fortress of hatred It’s not hate that fuels Yet confidence and love he lets safely rule Strength and focus, he knows it’s an amazing tool Notice he’s opened up the doors for his place to school Stupid mother fuckas doing none of us justice Only care to grant one of us success Draw the curtain bring an end to this act that we’re stuck in Out of envy, they’ll continue to fuck him Automatic retaliated talent He can’t give it up, he has a sick habit He’s been standing in the corner now he’s savage He knew this was always the way that he would have it I guess I ran outta time or maybe not enough lives or I just wasn’t meant to play I continued to insert those priceless coins into the slot but what I really needed was to reset the game I’ve defeated bosses, I’ve survived eating poisons, I kinda feel like I levelled up I’ve acquainted vast places, first place in races, so tell me why I can’t get the cup Witnessed, in awe, the mediocre players mash the perfect pattern to go and get the big cash And here I am learning the complex methods of a skill and I’ve adapted, still I sit last Maybe someday I’ll walk upon that bonus round for a second chance at becoming the king We all know that my AP is practically maxed out so be prepared for when I’m up in that ring

Even when the stars align, the direction still seems hard to find Correction I know where to go, but a reflection of my past isn't far behind Lanes don't change when you’re in a tunnel vision, so you get tomorrow blind Hooked on bad mistakes and poor decisions, somewhere you need to draw the line Palms up high, God knows why, you buckle because you can't find your place How the fuck will you ever move on in your life if you’re constantly dwelling on the time you waste Believe me age will get fine with taste, Reading the same page in life creates The strength of the stage where you just might debate Your patience and rage and how you can decide your fate It would be easy to play and rewind the tape You make your name, shit, then it’s all a sign and date The steps you take caution cause there might be snakes When your gut is fuckin with your stomach never fight the ache Now you're starin at a brick wall far down this big hall Distracted by the women in the windows of the strip mall Realize everything wasn't real in this reality Feel your eyes twitching to fix this image of a fallacy They’ve tried to take me to the bottom of the box that I was conjured from in hopes that I’d be a fucking failure in the end I wandered up the spout you cannot drown me I’m phenomenal, no choking on my words, believe there’s never giving in Tripped laces, traded places, stayed in spaces I was bothered in so I stepped farther from the truth and started spitting it Never stopped the fucking progress cause it’s not how I would ever be offered up as a sacrificial monster, getting it? I don't know now, what I should do I know where I’m leadin will have everything I’m needin Enough with competin, it’s that moment, silence your phones and find your seat and I’ve located my stage, always updating my page I am creating a phase where I’m invincible

Lord forgive me though I know what I do It’s been my lifetime since I’ve given confession I was 15 and no more looking up to you The same time I looked towards sin and aggression I wanted to feel, please believe I wanted to But I was empty, the best me felt shit in your blessin I was given your scriptures, heard nothin true I would still open my heart and always listen for lessons But I always got that silence I’d hope and pray but never became pious Laughed and ridiculed cause I connected with science I share different views doesn’t mean there’s no alliance Never your name in vain, I’m sendin my vow This ain’t a prayer it’s a talk, I’m ending my letter and I’ll Try to keep an open ear for when you get it but how Will I receive it if I don’t believe in heaven for now? And now I lay me down to sleep Never have I ever been found too weak To do what I need to but it’s hard to see through The task at hand when I’m not allowed to peek Raise me, bathe me in your light I hope it won’t scathe me, yet save me from my fight Why does it sound crazy? Acquaint me holy one I ain’t me if I open the gate, needing your only son I oughtta have the nerve to calm and quit And keep quiet till I get to sing your psalms and hymns There’s a fortress in my soul that’s blocking all of it Fuck abort this then I’ll know if I can stop this ball of shit From rolling and rolling in my downhill battle My mother told me, she told me to be one of your cattle Or sheep or lamb or one of your innocent children A god-fearing man, just a simple civilian Instead I wear the skin of this crippling villain Without the knowledge at all of how I strip this old feelin Hex on my head that stained the days of a rattle Never baptized in the river, never gave me a paddle I know it’s not your fault when I help myself down I don’t know if you were with me when I felt myself drown Don’t know if you were listening, those times when I prayed But now I’ll never know because I never stayed I’m sendin my vow This ain’t a prayer it’s a talk, I’m ending my letter and I’ll Try to keep an open ear for when you get it but how Will I receive it if I don’t believe in heaven for now?

Damn, today is grey Nowadays that shit seems like my amazing grace Rainin through the daylight drained in, I faced blockades Wished with several pennies that turned to dollars just to take my place On a list of sickly survivors, covered in dirt, engraved with angst I’m great but thanks for compassion, not askin for it, make your ways To cathedral doors, you’ll know what you need me for, praise my blanks When I come for heads, I’m cuttin em off with razorblades and shanks That are laced in my tongue, while it sprays this waste How fun, I aim for taste, awe bud, behavior saves the soul so chase this flavor with an ungrateful Dose of remediation hey, not done, hey not done How do you receive this length of bait? You can only catch em with a hook, so I have to say debate Hey, it’s your deaths birthday so you’ll have to save the date No category for me, likely story for my label mate This singularity still apparently we can’t view the same Web page blocked, restricted yet I see through the pane Callin it a screen that won’t shift the shit out, soon I’ll change Mumble my shit accordingly, then you’ll want more of me, I’m like you, LET’S BANG! New breed, new style, un-annunciated madness Dead fuck, dead child, a cum stain on a mattress Too much of that loud, purses and designer fabrics Watch the culture go down, only a few goose and mavericks Sideways for attention, long ways for results Don’t do it the wrong way, no room for any faults Either kill your fuckin self or let my lyricism have the pleasure Kill the spirit that will never build your merit, any measure Of this freshmen class will pile up to zip Amount to nothin, I’m out like a nip Exposed and vulnerable I’m about to just RIP Filled up and gassed out, your mouth full of shit There ain’t no more shine left on these shoes The sole is worn, why tread, only loose Laced boots will track mud unless we can choose To find a use for them old sneakers, did I get you confused Sayin metaphors to single out the simple minded kids This reminded me of when I stuck with sin and violence It was pointless like the luxury of string less violins Where’s the enjoyment in the music if I can’t get high on this? I’m never gonna ever walk that mediocre sad and overrated path you headed down just to make a buck or two I don’t really give a fuck who you think that you impress, but your impression of piece of shit is simply wonderful That raw display of talent I just saw just made me fall behind Why is money your only passion and have to capture it all online Our hearts have been replaced by ugly wads of dollar signs Rest in peace to poetry, the beating stopped, card declined

Let the light shine Bright enough that it may even leave my sight blind I’ve been patiently waiting all of this life time For the perfect moment to entwine me in my right mind Come to think, I didn’t think I’d see my hands full Yea, with issues that would help me to dismantle Speaking of when I slip and need help from that damn hole So I’ll do my best to give this world one less damsel It’s all open, except the past is closin’ Leave behind the broken choices hopin’ they stay behind That I chose to weave them outta dreams with hopeful replacements I used to wish to change shit and then I learned erase it Because of you, you kinda been a guide I’ve learned and I’ve turned into what I knew I was inside I’ve burned and I’ve earned bridges that hide the path I ride We’ve proven to society we’ll ride but never die Either way we drive forward with your little hand in mine One day I awoke, to a new place and time To this cute face, you taste so perfect with my wine I was hungry and now I have a serviced appetite Still to this day, I’m thrilled to say You are everything I needed to be around I will never be lost, I am found It all began at the altar, few sips, few glances Some gentle conversation and some rock n roll dances Bits of rap and metal will spark a romance if You choose the perfect soulmate to take the right chance with It’s funny how the tunnel of love twists and turns Through those shady neighborhoods, ya live, ya learn You’ll get thrown down, blown out, tore up, sure ‘nuff Hit the brick wall before ya find what you’re looking for, uh Then there she came straight from heaven A combination of the total, had a fateful seven I finally got my wish on that date eleven Eleven came through for me, it became a blessin I needed that bottle shop, I needed it, I did It elevated my personal well-being lifted Me out of the darkness where I frequent hid She helped me cleanse the garbage that the demons left The sweetest thing that could’ve happened and I’m keepin it One day I awoke, to a new place and time To this cute face, you taste so perfect with my wine I was hungry and now I have a serviced appetite Still to this day, I’m thrilled to say You are everything I needed to be around I will never be lost, I am found Do you take her? Sure Do you take him? K OK I’m pretty sure that there’s nothing left to say, nothing

I believe, that what I am, is just at bay to be perceived No more past to relive, just a day where I’m relieved When I stand up to those voices that say they don’t deceive While their tiny little flashlights signaled only broken dreams Each voice, one side, different tones, pathetic views Constantly yelling over each other yet arguing separate feuds Both demanding my compliance with no gratitude when credits due Let it swoon, accept the bruise, lose the leftover hues, shed the moods Many moons have come where I felt I dealt with the good What I didn’t know, he wore a mask to disguise the skeleton that should Have been painted black, it then would match, it watched me as I stood back Unknowingly I looked passed all the questions that I could ask Figures entered in and out, dissolving the revolving door Never resolving more than I needed, proceeded with recalling wars Hauling stored data from a cloud that I once thought I walked upon Solely triggering the clock to start me back to when I stopped the bomb Guess I gotta figure out who the culprit was back then That fucking minion on the pulpit, I must know, who was that friend Gather the scattered debris and solve it, I must bring about that end To the smiling revolver, slit their throats and drag them Out into the public, for a maiming all will witness Claiming null to privileged, I blame that law is frivolous Overcome the challenges, I say it’s my job, it’s business I live to battle its flaws with speech and leave em odd with interests When I climb to the ledge and I'm about to jump Will you talk me down or did you help me up? I’m looking up, somebody reached and grabbed me and stood me up No one’s aware what I am cooking up, yea, the kitchen is hot now No one is prepared for the jot down, are you scared that I’m hittin the spot now I’m here, I’m the shit on the pot now, feel the chill in the air when I drop down This is how I’m really feelin, above you all, watchin you kneelin It’s the real me I’m revealin, linin you up for the killin I found me just staggerin or bound and gagged and I’m Fed up with negative messages, I can’t express what is happenin Forward and back with the “this” and the “that” and my Flight has arrived so I’m done with that traveler I’ve landed, I’m grounded, I’ve planted my fuckin roots I’ve gone up the chutes you stuffed me down but I’m loose Shook off the extra skin and then I cut the noose I used to care to obey then realized what’s the use? Moveable parts and reusable heart in a damaged package Pursuable art that can’t be average due to its manufractured Program and handled with no care but I’m wired, yes If I don’t blow apart right now it will be one of my all-time regrets When I climb to the ledge and I'm about to jump Will you talk me down or did you help me up? I haven’t pondered enough about it, not even the slightest fraction On how I wander up around it and how I display this type of passion Where’s my market, I haven’t found it, pretty sure I might buy its casket Unless it appears in the next few minutes I’m givin up the chase and I’m flyin passed it Nope, I’m definitely not, my balls dropped and the engine was hot My belly was churning, intestinal knot, I needed that yearning, then enter the plot Was goin to Cali to get me a shot, instead I kept Pittsburgh, it lent me a cot Years spent sleepin, drinkin the weekends, not teachin myself to be setting it off Oh, were my fireworks inside lacking location of fuse No, when I found one to ignite, it’s a dud and I’ve been payin my dues Whoa, maybe this music fucked me up cause I keep stayin confused Oh, I know what I’ll do, rebirth, reinvention, now I’m makin the moves I’m a brand new man, with a brand new set of survival skills They’re not coming to me, I’m goin to them, I need to see my rivals killed Move through the shade, to remove their tongues, all in silence, still Never admit to authorities, it was all in fun, just to find a thrill When I climb to the ledge and I'm about to jump Will you talk me down or did you help me up?

Listen here, I guess I wasn’t the brightest kid I mean I was smart but my decisions, who decided them? I look back and I can’t even believe that I was him I tried losing sight of it but it’s just who I was then I was a little boy imagination big and wild Mother said I’d sit with toys, real patient, a simple child In my own realm, playing, I didn’t get too loud Except for torpedo man, they loved having him around Watching Friday, the 13th at the age of three Horror went and found a comfy seat in that page of me These ingredients mixed with a teen sprouting angrily Be prepared for the scenes you’re about to pay to see Art’s been in my blood then music joined the mixture too Once they disassembled who I was there is no fixin you Like everyone I felt invincible, this is true Not thinkin everything you’ve done, somehow will stick with you Your bones, forever dense What’s passed is present tense You’ll never live this down Same circus different clown The weight is hard to hold Your garbage far too gold Twisted face in this crowd Same circus different clown I became a product of my environment An adolescent with a messy bed, still I'd lie in it I didn't have any answers but I believed science did So to this day confused to say I don't know why I am Slightly slippin to psychotic when asked simple questions Probably cause the stupid shit I was accused of, built the tension Oh yea, you know what else I forgot to mention Talk down to me and I might deviate your septum Alleviate the next one, you haven’t seen the hateful spectrums The demons label these enabled genus fabled nexus Beings that inhabit me, three unstable sections There’s a halo, two horns and a few cradled emblems Been a father my entire not so somber adult life Years of heavy usage helped me wander to fault lines All of this has added up to the greatest me of all times A clown of different colors and painted dreams I call mine Your bones, forever dense What’s passed is present tense You’ll never live this down Same circus different clown The weight is hard to hold Your garbage far too gold Twisted face in this crowd Same circus different clown

Don't be careless or might inherit the madness of your merits and badges, bruises too scared of your passion when you stare at the past, you aware of what happened? Staring at the mirror nothings really clear why you’re laughing Finally there’s a family, understanding and backing Your full potential, accept you, fill the void where you’re lacking Oh boy keep on hacking the black and white decoys as they’re yapping Verbal color spectrum wrecked them guess not ready for lights, camera action The mic is slicing through your righteous fashion This knife of mine is so right to have when I know I own this as long as I'm rappin Who can hold a tone to this throat so raspy? You can swallow the bone I've thrown keep gaggin On your words we've heard they've turned so ragged Imitations repeated, defeated the stations, not needin The spacious places I'm waitin to invade these attics I take this ugly beaten box and throw all my words in Not knowing how they'll come back out well, kinda makes nervous Will they make the least bit of sense, like saying fish fly and birds swim Or that a married mother of one still considers herself a virgin I gnashed my teeth and bit the priestess ladies' breast A Better man, a veteran, I see the weakness in your best Leave ya sleepless in a breath, Believe I need this peace for rest Leave a piece of me to test, to see what keeps my genes relieved of stress I eat, I feed, ingest, Repeat, repeat, repeat processed Meat that never bleeds, so cheap and neat, cleanly hands and feet And always Sunday dressed, complete and Sunday blessed Up and down, kneel to the ground, the image of a mundane mess Preach and teach me scripture, pictures of your intellect I find more useful truths in youthful groups of sluts on the internet Bring me that crying mothers lying mouth no doubt I'll enter it Here’s a load of new ideas, will she swallow or attempt to spit Dropping eggs between them legs then I come in with sentiment Yea she's scared but I don't care, expected her to be hesitant When she opens that Oval Office I'll be playing president After I cream my seeds into her seams she'll believe her child is heaven sent

I’m thinkin I may be in over my head, seein these demons all night in my bed Lookin like women temptation is fed, drainin me makin me play like I’m dead Covered in fluids, they’re white and they’re red but the black colored iris is frightening To the point that I’m havin this shortness of breath, I’ve resorted to sex with all sorts of regrets This sorcery forcin me to obey all commands and they’re preachin “WORSHIP ME!!” I’m sure to see horrible teeth gnashing me and remorsefully keeping score for me Every scrape of the sharpened incisors digging deep in succulent flesh It’s causing me to be a lunatic, ‘I’LL SHOW YOU A TRICK”, what a fuckin mess!!! I was tied to the posts, caked cocaine in my nose, choking on the residual drips in my throat With a hand written note from the blood that’s been soaked on the pillow where I pray I awoke I was bound to the slab as she still tried to entice me with a brooding demeanor So she dropped to her knees and cleaned me, indeed I was soon a believer I’ll induce you I’m the dirty one, I’ll burn you with my serpents tongue You’ll scream so loud, you’ll burst you’re lung, seduce me or I curse your young How the fuck could this be so real, I was asleep now amazed I can feel All of this time she was hiding inside of the one that I loved and just waiting to kill But I cannot let this happen her tendrils were attachin, violent attackin My body was draggin back to her cavern so she and her creatures can feast on what’s left of my being while bathin My speech is being stripped like my skin and their clothes, how the fuck are they reaching orgasm? I must be released from this chasm, wake me up, pretty please cause I’m passin It’s all dream but I see I can’t grasp it, and ending to me I can’t fathom But maybe it’s blessed, remove all my stresses that I can’t address in good fashion You’re such a good fuckin wind up doll, how big I can feel when I’m so small You will not make it back this time from falling asleep cause I have you and I want all Somehow I made it free from her grips, free from her teeth and the seizing of hips She’s after me with all her evilest fits, she’s a glitch, how the fuck can I flee this bitch? Wake me up from my sleep, why the fuck can I not find a form of release from this? The pain has now peaked, you got what you seek, what more could you need to feed on it’s Just a game, a flavor she craves, a succubus that haunts all of your neighbors to make you afraid Enough to just painfully take all of your “oh my gods” and tangle your faith Watch if you repeat and how say all her names, she will come to reap, claim you in your sleep Fuck you and eat all of the brains that you keep, she’s tearing off my flesh like it’s savory meat And if I woke I’d start to pray to never see the blackened eyes of “As U Dem” gazing at me When you kill the lights and close your eyes never ever start saying it in threes I didn’t believe it neither, just a tale, a legend, not possible or able as it seems It started as a beautiful dream, then she drains all that you are and takes it and leaves

It was never real clear which way to go Doors open up for me and then I watch them slowly close The sound, the sound of it slamming down Is when I’d realize I lost what I had found No recollection won’t be a re collection The monotone reality seizing the inflection The knowhow, the instinct, every familiar face Became blank, it all became blank As white as the sheet where I scratched my next day’s plans Then I misplaced the world that was sweating in my hands The hourglass is tilting back as I trembled in the sands Soon I’ll rewind it all again, back to the reprimands The demands, the boundaries, the lack of best to know The last time that I’d show myself intact to never grow Just a sad display that’s acting out an asshole’s severed soul The real me will never show, that me will never show It comes down to this Reality is fake, only believe in what you make It comes down to this To meet god is just a death, to feel pain is in breath It comes down to this All you know is what you don’t, faith is frail to hope It comes down to this What you see ain’t always real, but it is when you can feel These lights have grown dim As I walk towards the door, I wonder if they know him That me I thought I was and never became Let them tell me who I am, then I let it remain Why did I have them shape me? Manufractured a mold and they produced a fraud If I was in a dream, I’d wake me No need for enticement, no use for a god I willingly let the curtain close before my final act Pulled my courage from the velvet ropes and I couldn’t hide the fact My sound was so detuned that I had to deny the track From being played for the public eye, now I must rewind it back The fantasy, the mirage, the oasis, the refuge The happy place, I’d like to make my personal test tube Where I gather my culture and grow a new me to confess to Maybe then I’ll believe in that me more than the one I sent you

I sit in this suburban house, tryna sneak through word of mouth I'd love to get the message through but I can’t scratch the surface out Or muster up the courage I'll just tumble over verbs and nouns Offer up some positivity and feed some purpose now We have our fun, our laughs, our ridiculous memes To add a shade over the controvert political schemes Continuously take for granted some of the simple things With sick society interests and the image it brings Adapt to an age where information’s in our hands Abuse it for the wrong usage and portray a village dammed What happens when the flood opens the gates to fill the land? Our anthem becomes un-national and we're raised to sit not stand This world is self-imploding largely on religious views Minds and bombs exploding partly cause the figures used Police and citizens are throwing shots at different hues Media has been controlled to point you towards the hinted feuds GMO’s in mass production to feed the growing crowd The cancer in our cells to keep the system slowing down The televisions static to confuse the knowing how What, when, why and where manipulations going now Buy this bigger better thing, get a bigger better you Pay no attention to the curtain that veils the “never do” Strap on your leather boots, sure to meet the weather soon As it changes for the cleansing, then I’ll see you when it’s through There was a simple time when we lived to 35 Technology and development trump that chosen life Medication’s now a business, survival’s overpriced Unless your credits endless, death will never close its eyes Rivers running red from oxidized metals in our waste New, improved, needed products reveled in our face Dehumanizing all to come, unsettling our grace Feed our malnutrition, then they left without a trace “Somewhere over the rainbow…” The bloody baby pictures posted up and down the street The ringing of alarms is starting to really sound as sweet As the chinging of the change that’s clangs all around our feet Falling from the hands of children that had never found their seat Just keep mixing up chemicals for new ways to get high The future’s, a vision at least you have a few days to get by The epidemic is astounding, the amount you’d pay you’d think why Give them a second chance just to make a few survive Western and eastern worlds in these civil wars How many boys and girls must go and get awards For the number of heads that they can stick on swords? Post it on the internet and boast, about this shit, on boards News is strictly negative or boring to our ears Views are instant credit given for a lack of peers We sit behind a keyboard preaching tips on living life Then list all of reasons, teaching kids, what it isn’t like I really hope there comes a time when we can see a change Before the day we all are blind from screens that need arranged Try to fix each other’s lives and speak one and the same Language, not the dialect but understand me when I say That I care too much to just watch the falling of our people It’s sickening to know that we continue to breed this evil Imagine a fuckin world that you were seen as equal Pretty goddamn shitty that these are the heights that we would steep to “Somewhere over the rainbow…”